Author: ericprincessdragon

  • The Challenge: July 2018 Pt. 2 – Songs 14-27

    Continued from Part 1 – Songs 1-13

    Introduction

    Revisiting these demos here in September 2026 — 8 years later — I am filled with equal doses of amusement, cringe and pride. I spoke with somebody recently who had kept journals dating back to his childhood years. When I asked if he ever read them he said “no!” I’m not in the habit of keeping any habits and I often wish that I would have kept better records of my thoughts and experiences throughout my life. I’m grateful at least that I have songs and recordings dating back to the early 2010s as I continue through this archiving project. I will continue to dig further back into the early days, where I might feel more cringe and confusion than pride or amusement, or perhaps find something else entirely that will shift my paradigm and take me back to simpler and less tattered times.

    Recently I had the great pleasure of watching musical mastermind/mad genius Mike Keneally perform at a very small venue in Redding, California, where he debuted two new songs. He had yet to finish the lyrics, but before playing these instrumentals he shared the lyrical inspiration for each song. One of which he titled “DADFACE” after the way he tuned his guitar (DADF#CE) which then inspired him to write about a series of recurring nightmares that he had around the age of six and seven. He described the dream as being about an entity he called the “Tickle Man.” In the dream, his dad would tell him that he was leaving to the movies, and he would leave the house — moments later a man would enter the house who looked exactly like his father, dressed just like him, except he wasn’t his father at all. He was the Tickle Man, and he was there to tickle young Mike Keneally. He told us that he hated being tickled as a kid. Same here. Some people in the crowd were clearly horrified, but I was dying laughing, and I was inspired. Mike Keneally was born in 1961 — which means that the dreams that inspired his newest song happened between 1968 and 1969. It’s amazing how deep and lasting our own personal experiences can be, in this case inspiring a song over half a century later. If I have the great fortune live to a ripe old age, I wonder what might inspire my songs then.

    There are many experiences and periods of my life that I fully intend to write into song, including dreams and nightmares. In the meantime I’ll get back to The Challenge — 2018 edition. Continuing through the second half of songs completed between July and August 2018:


    14. Men And Ladies

    I’ve been hit on plenty of times by both men and ladies, sometimes more subtle, other times not subtle at all. I’m not much for partying and generally not interested in hook ups with random people at a bar, club, etc. At least not before I’ve had a chance to really get to know somebody and make a more deep and meaningful connection. That is what this song is here to express!

    At the top, I mentioned feeling the cringe and pride, and I definitely feel that strongly listening to this. I can’t help but judge my vocals harshly, I’m not too happy with the vocal performance on this track — particularly the background vocals — but I am still pleased with the instrumental and enjoy the song overall. I wish I could remember the reference I used when I was making this song — I remember pulling up some 90s or early 2000s hip-hop/R&B track, as I was really trying to channel this kind of vibe to serve as an ironic contrast to the lyric. The instrumental is a loop with two guitars, bass, and two keyboard parts that are woven together over a simple drum loop.

    One of the most interesting aspects of doing a song-a-day challenge is that I can tap into a simple concept like this and give myself the license to put it together as a complete statement. I couldn’t imagine spending days or weeks on a song like this, but on the day that I wrote and recorded it, I was excited to bring the concept to life. It’s a song about not wanting to hook up with the men and ladies that wanna fuck me, which is a pretty ridiculous thing to write about in the first place — and then very quickly I set the intention to create this type of chill 90s-inspired loop, another thing I normally would not have reached for when writing. Putting such a strict deadline and pressure to finish something can be liberating in a way. I don’t feel too attached to this song, but I enjoy it for what it is. I’ve never tried to play it live, but I would love to do it with a band for a laugh someday.

    To all the men and the ladies 
    Who wanna fuck me 
    That’s alright that’s alright
    But you ain’t gonna have me 
    On the very first night 
    I’m not that kinda guy I’m not that kinda guy

    To all the men and the ladies 
    Who wanna fuck me 
    That’s alright that’s alright x2

    But can’t we just have a good time tonight
    Without consummation 
    Can’t we just have a good time tonight
    Without consummation 

    If I barely know you
    I ain’t going home with you 
    I gotta know if
    You’re down with that D&M 
    If you understand me 
    And I understand you 
    Maybe we can be a thing 
    But until then don’t touch me 

    All the men and ladies 
    That wanna fuck me
    That’s alright that’s alright 
    But you ain’t gonna have me 
    On the very first try 
    I guess I’m kinda shy I guess I’m kinda shy
    Can’t we just have a good time
    Without consummation tonight 
    Can’t we just have a good time tonight
    Without consummation 
    Can’t we just have a good time
    Without consummation 


    15. Trash Day

    I began writing this by saying that I don’t know for sure, but I would wager that this song was written and recorded on a Wednesday, which on my street is trash day. I looked into it and found that the recording is dated August 1, 2018 — which I verified was in fact a Wednesday.

    This is a very clear example of the type of song I would never write outside of such a challenge. Leaning into a very specific sound or genre, this song was inspired by the few goth shows that I had been to over the years in LA and London. I believe I had just written a few simple lines about trash day and came up with the concept of doing a very stylized goth song about leaving the past and attachments behind — tossing them in the bin and kicking them to the curb. I didn’t listen to any goth music for reference, this was more of an approximation based off memory. The key thing I remember from those shows was the goths performing with drum machines, which played fast and simple drum loops, over which they sung and played live instruments such as keys, guitar and bass.

    I started with the drum loop and wrote a dark little guitar riff over two chords which is the core of the song. Listening now I can’t even recognize my own voice. This is a rare case of really trying to put on a stylized voice — the voice sounds like it’s been manipulated, pitched up, etc., but it was recorded straight into GarageBand with only a distortion effect. Imagine if I put on this voice for all of my songs? Anyway, it’s a bizarre track that I never attempted to play or perform after recording. It’s a weird song, especially my favorite part when all the voices go “OOWAHHH! WAAAOOOWW!”

    Turn your trash
    Into history

    Open up
    Can your legacy

    [+repetitions thereof]


    16. Mind Game

    This is a major tonal shift from the last couple of songs. It began with the dirty, bluesy guitar riff you hear right at the top. From that I started writing this slow blues rock jam, which is basically just “fuck you, leave me alone” to my own mind. The mind games being paranoia, anxiety, depression, self-consciousness, etc. — and on a more immediate level, just the incessant, near-constant inner monologue that I carry in my head just about every waking moment. Of course, there are moments of calm and quiet — meditation, focus, stillness and presence. But the narrator of this song is almost crying out for relief, understanding that the only true escape from this chatter is death itself. This guy has got the busy-minded blues.

    This song actually did have a bit of life after the challenge. It never became a staple, but it was a song we played a bit with The Planet Of — I believe we performed it a couple of times over the years. Again, this is an example of me putting on a bit of a persona in the vocal performance — ragtime and delta recordings gave me the right attitude for this type of performance. This is one of a small batch of blues-inspired songs I’ve written over the years.

    Revisiting these songs is inspiring me to take on the song-a-day challenge again in the near future. I find that over the last few years I haven’t been putting so much thought or intention into style and genre — instead just focusing on the song itself, not really using any specific genre or references as I put a tune together. When I’m writing a new song every day, I feel compelled to pivot, to change directions and approaches, to try something new and different with each piece. I feel that this keeps the creative process interesting and exciting, and with the time crunch, my inhibitions are lowered. Without judgement I will lean into a genre or style such as the blues rock here, or electro goth in Trash Day. In general I don’t feel compelled towards any particular genre, viewing genre as more of a device. Having spent a lifetime listening to a wide range of music, there are so many influences to draw from. The same song can be arranged and interpreted across any genre.

    Listening to these songs now I feel like I’m receiving a message from the past — to be more playful, take more risks, and don’t get too attached to what I’m creating. Thanks for the perspective, past me.

    Mind games 
    Get out of my head 
    Mind games 
    Admit you won’t rest 
    Until I’m dead

    Them words is cheap
    Their meaning sneaks
    Digging and nibbling away 
    At the weakest parts of me
    Admit you won’t quit 
    Until I’m 
    Dead 

    Your the tick on my back 
    The bitch on my sack 
    I can take a beating 
    But those blows you blows you been repeating
    Are the break to my neck 
    The hell to my heck 
    I ask you to disappear 
    But I know that you won’t relent 
    Until I’m 
    Dead 


    17. Tails

    I adore this song. In the last couple of months I tracked down the original session for this and started practicing the parts to perform. It’s a strange song, difficult to sing and play, and it belongs to a growing collection of songs I’ve written about dogs and cats — a collection that’s grown long enough to constitute an album, or at the very least a future post compiling them on this website.

    Listening to the song I get the sense that this sounds and feels closer to my regular day-to-day life than many of the songs I’ve recorded. The song is about my dogs — describing us at home going from our room down the stairs and outside, driving down the hill and to the beach. This is all very routine. In fact, before speaking these words now I just emptied my socks and shoes of sand from one of our frequent coastal stops between Gold Beach and Brookings, OR. My lungs still feel a light burn from sprinting along the shore with Om and (brother) Loki, and now they rest by my side, content, as we continue down the highway and I carry on with these words.

    It’s a short song in seven, detailing a major slice of my everyday life. As I listen to the song, I can picture them in so many moments, each of the funny little melodies coming and going like a score for their individual quirks and personalities. They are two of the closest beings to my heart, my closest companions, and two of the great loves of my life. This one is for them.

    Tailing me everywhere I go
    From my room to the yard
    To the car and to the road
    When I take a step they follow me
    When I take a drive they sit beside me

    When I leave the car they follow me
    To the beach down the coast in the sea
    When I run they run in front of me
    But never far enough not to be

    Tailing me everywhere I go
    From the start little Om at my side
    with brother Loki
    Every step they watch and follow me
    From the sand to the car
    On the road and up the hill
    Then through the yard and to our bed
    Where we lay and rest our sleepy heads


    18. Stanky Town

    The song was inspired by a quick conversation with a friend over text messages. She told me that she was in New York City — a place that I’ve yet to visit, but I do have plans to visit next year. In my imagination, New York City is the grandest city on earth, with buildings beyond my wildest dreams, more lights and cars and people than I would ever wish to see all in one place — a place where anything and everything can and does happen, a place that never sleeps where a night owl like myself can find a lot of fun and trouble.

    So when my friend told me she was in the Big Apple, my imagination started running wild. I asked her how it was, what she was up to, imagining a naïve vision of smoky nightclubs filled with music and laughter — and her response was that it was 100 degrees and humid. She called it “swamp ass central.” My fantasy quickly turned, and I said it sounds like Stanky Town over there. From that conversation I decided to dive into another genre and make a funk song called Stanky Town (NYC). Lyrically it’s quite simple, but I put a lot of care into the arrangement — from the driving main guitar riff and very busy basslines to the keyboard and guitar melodies that add flavor to the track.

    This is one of the few songs from this challenge that found lots of life after the initial recording. I’ve lost track of the original demo, the recording below was reworked from the original demo according to a live arrangement as performed with The Planet Of. Eventually I wrote a second verse — I will include the new lyrics in italics below. This is a tribute to a city I’ve yet to visit but look forward to experiencing in cooler weather.

    Everybody come along
    We’re going to the city of the stank
    Wear your booty shorts
    It’s summer in the city of the stank

    Stanky town
    Stanky town
    Stanky town
    Stanky stanky

    Building scrape the sky
    But we can’t hide where the sun don’t shine
    Cause it’s 98 degrees
    And our booties are a-sweatin’ anyway

    Stanky town
    Stanky town
    Stanky town
    Stanky stanky


    19. Our Lucky Ears

    The song is a tribute to many of my oldest friends, particularly within the music community around the San Gabriel Valley and Inland Empire. These are friends that I studied with at Citrus and Pasadena City Colleges, friends that I played many gigs with from around 2010 to 2017. I cherish the days I spent living and learning, playing and performing alongside them, and I look at them from a distance with so much awe and gratitude. One of the beautiful things about having creative friends is that I can connect with them through their art, no matter how far away we are in distance and time — I can listen to their music and let the songs wash over me.

    There is some nostalgia and melancholy surrounding these relationships, and I believe that comes across in the song, but it’s written from a place of love. I forgot that I had written this as part of the song-a-day challenge — I believe this one in particular I put together over a few days before I finally submitted it. It’s gone through an interesting form, moving from section to section without repeating parts. I wound up making a video using some shots from around the house as well as videos I kept from years ago. Please watch and consider that every face you see is a legend in my heart. In the last couple of years I revisited the track and recorded some more parts, but haven’t quite finished it. I will include a more recent recording here along with the video, which has an older version closer to the original demo.


    20. Crow

    Some days we dig deep into ourselves, into the depths of our hearts and souls, to try and convey something universal, something personal held deep within, and put it into a container that we can release out into the world. Other times — and more often, really — we might see something like a crow hopping across the road and involuntarily come up with a silly jingle, the fleeting little earworm that will stay with us for a time and then run its course, forgotten in a place where silly little jingles go to retire. I don’t usually hang onto these jingles — I might sing them to my dogs or to myself in the car and let them go — but when I’m in the thick of writing a new song every day, recording a new song every day, I’ll entertain any idea that comes to me. That’s why Crow exists.

    I can just visualize this crow — for some reason, something I would see any other day and pay little or no mind to, and forget, but for some reason I have this vivid image of a crow at the edge of town. I was driving home, and just hopping across the street doing its crow thing, living its best crow life, and in my mind I just start hearing “crow hopped across the road, crow hopped across the road, crow hopped across the road” — and then my inner musical voice split off: “What is he doing? Where is he going? He should be careful.”

    Anyway, I went home and started building a beat around this little jingle. In revisiting these songs I realize that I was taking a departure from writing with the guitar on many of them — this is another example of a song that has no guitar or bass recorded on it. I was spending more time at the keyboard, more time in the computer, imagining melodies, experimenting with electronic sounds, drum loops and drum programming, and the song took on a kind of techno/dance beat foundation as I was piecing it together.

    As I was making progress on the song I thought about how a grouping of crows is called a murder, which is intense and strange, but I like to write jokes into songs whenever I can, and I thought it would be funny to just say “and now for the relaxing sound of a murder.” So I knew the song would go there eventually — I went online and looked for field recordings of crows, and I believe it was a sort of composite of different crow recordings that I put together, and then played a series of improvised, spacious keyboard parts, which actually ended up building quite a relaxing atmosphere. It’s really a silly and experimental song that I had a lot of fun with, and although it’s a bit ridiculous, I will say it turned out a lot better than I was expecting when I first set out to make a song about this crow.

    One other thing worth adding: my friend Calen once told me that crows are really quite brilliant — they have the ability to communicate exceptionally well amongst each other, and they have great memories. He told me it’s been documented that a crow can remember individual humans — that they remember a human who has treated them well, or one who has wronged them — and not only that, they can communicate it to other crows. So it would be wise to treat crows well — if you cross one crow you might have a murder raining down on your ass; treat one well and you could be in the murder’s good graces. So if you see a crow, be nice. I think this is a good approach to all animals, but crows especially.


    21. Expiration

    I was inspired to write this song after a friend came to visit. He was experiencing a mental health crisis, some serious depression, and a case of hypochondria, which was aggravated while working in a cancer hospital. After having a self described mental breakdown, he took a break from school and work to tend to his mental health and came up to lay low for a time at my place in Oregon. We spoke at length about his anxieties and fears, and the things he had gone through over the last years, including self diagnosed health scares which had turned out to be false alarms. He was working in a hospital where people were struggling, living through terminal illness, while he had no such disease and was physically in good health — yet he was convinced that he had cancer or another hidden illness. During his visit, he told me that he was convinced he would die soon, that he didn’t have much time left, but again, after ordering medical tests and seeing doctors and specialists, he was repeatedly given a clean bill of health.

    I wrote this song as a statement to him — and without intending to be insensitive to the hypochondria, it’s essentially a song about how our minds can make us sick, that the reality of a perfectly healthy person believing they had little time to live was a cruel and ridiculous trick of the mind. I acknowledge that we are all heading for the same outcome, no matter how young or healthy we may be today — but with that, I find it is better to take gratitude in the health we’ve got, recognizing that others would give so much for the health and time that we take for granted.

    I think this song is meant to be hopeful and uplifting, while acknowledging the way we worry ourselves sick. Without putting all the responsibility on ourselves for the state of our mental health, I do believe that wherever we focus our conscious attention has a major effect on our physical and emotional outcomes. I guess that’s what I was trying to express here.

    Musically it’s got a funky lo-fi thing going on, with some melodic bass playing and longer vocal melodies, which I did no favors with my original, weak vocal performance. This song was performed at a couple of gigs in the summer of 2023, with my good friend Theresa taking the lead vocal — I believe there might be a live recording of it somewhere, but I’d have to dig pretty deep to find that. I do like this song and would like to revisit it with a better recording and take it back to the stage.

    By the way, the friend I’ve been talking about is still alive all these years later, and doing much better these days.

    You said you felt your time is short
    And I just laughed it off
    I said that some folks are truly old
    And truly sick
    And truly done

    Right now our stories are being told
    And written
    And sung
    Oh whatever medium
    I believe
    We got plenty more to be

    But stress and heartache are mean breakers
    They break our bodies
    And our spirits down

    These are the villains in our story
    Along with discontent
    And disappointment

    We are the makers and the breakers
    Of bodies hanging from our heads
    Becoming spitting images
    Of where we focus them
    Where we focus them

    Walking the same old
    We see the same old
    Thinking bout the same old
    We remain the same old

    Myself and everyone we know
    Walk the path to expiration
    Myself and everyone we know
    Walk the path to expiration


    22. I’m Silent (As CO)

    There are some songs that we write, and write again and then write again once more. This is one of those songs. A song about the situation I often find myself in where I want to reach out to someone, but I struggle to the point of paralysis and non action. Writing messages and deleting or never sending them. Staring at a screen or beginning to write a letter only to toss it away.

    This never feels good, but doesn’t feel too dangerous. I believe it can be very dangerous, in that it can be detrimental to relationships or in some cases it can mean the end of a connection for life. Hence the metaphor of the silent, but deadly gas: carbon monoxide (CO).

    Carbon monoxide (CO) is a colorless, odorless, and tasteless gas that acts as a silent killer because humans cannot see or smell it. It forms when carbon-based fuels do not burn completely

    It brings to mind now a situation my dad experienced as a teenager, he woke up feeling very out of sorts with a strong headache and when he tried to wake up his parents to let them know they wouldn’t get up. He managed to get everyone out of the house and they found out they were getting poisoned by a gas leak. Scary! But way save the day, dad.

    This is a short song at just over a minute and features a very processed guitar that was sampled down to 8 (or 16) bits giving it an almost old school video game sound. I decided to lean into the lofi sound, processing the drums and vocals. Simple little throw away tune, with a message that I feel.

    Crumpled piece of paper
    Can’t get my words together
    I wish to write I swear I swear
    I swear I swear but yet

    I’m silent as CO
    But yet
    I’m silent as CO
    But yet
    I’m silent as CO
    But yet
    I’m silent


    23. Tree Sap

    Another indie-pop-inspired tune, and another tune inspired by my dear friend Liam, who was mentioned in the previous entry. I wrote about visiting him in Germany in the entry about the song Missed Connections, and how within this same song-a-day challenge we also had a one-on-one challenge going, where we would prompt each other for a song to write. First he gave me the prompt to write a song about Trump’s wig, which led to His Royal Mop — and then this song, where the prompt was “stealing tree sap.”

    My mind first went back to Germany, where a day or two before I’d bombed down a country road on his longboard (a vessel very unfamiliar to me) and bailed onto the pavement, shredding my arm and side. We were happily climbing cherry trees down the road, eating delicious cherries straight off the branch while collecting more for later. From that image I began to imagine being a child — roaming barefoot, climbing trees, getting covered in sap and mosquito bites without a care in the world. I didn’t have a childhood quite like this, but I have had such experiences as an adult and I can imagine the rest in song. This one goes out to Liam.

    Oh we roam the yard
    We leave our shoes and socks behind
    We run through dirt and grass
    Steppin’ on a few rocks along the way

    But we ain’t mad
    No we ain’t hurtin’
    We’re having fun
    Spendin’ the day away from home

    We play in the sun
    Take to the trees to catch some shade
    Then we start to climb
    At the top we pop fresh drupes and spit the seeds

    We end up sticky
    But we ain’t sad
    We’re having fun
    Stealing tree sap

    Near dusk it’s time to move
    We got blood suckers on the loose
    No doubt we’re gettin bitten
    We come home decorated
    But listen

    We ain’t mad
    Just a little itchy
    We been having fun
    Out stealing tree sap


    24. Tongue Dry As A Bone

    This is a strange one. I guess I was going for more abstract, stream-of-consciousness writing, but I honestly can’t remember and can’t decipher what I was getting at when I wrote this. I’m not going to try to dissect it much further than that.

    I remember during this challenge one friend took a particular liking to this song. I guess that counts for something but I was almost as surprised then as I am now.

    Tongue dry as a bone
    Who could kill a camera
    Making us believe
    We are anyone but who we are
    Making us believe
    We are anything but what we are
    And so we are

    Tongue
    dry as a
    bone
    Who could kill a camera
    Make us believe
    Believe we are everywhere/anywhere but here
    And so we are
    And so we are

    Tooth thirsty as a tongue
    Lap us up
    Tingling in our lap
    Tickle in our skulls
    Taking us away
    To make us believe
    We are
    Everywhere but here
    And so we are
    So we are

    Tongue dry as a bone
    Feather heavy as a battery
    And a bolt with a chain and I’m shaken
    We’re shaking
    and falling down
    We’re falling
    Faster than a thousand bones
    off a bridge
    Fast as a thousand bones

    Wishing and wishing
    We will land softly
    Never landing at all
    Wishing and wishing
    We will rise and rise
    Recognized unrecognized
    Unrecognized recognized
    We splash into rapids
    Into the river ephemeral

    Any mention many a mask
    And a dress for all occasions
    Can not be stumped
    Can not sink in the river ephemeral
    And never float never swim just one dashing splash in the slip
    Pray for a record fixed so they know we exist
    Anywhere and everywhere from where we had been and gone
    A squinted eye a mimed frame just a passing recognition in a single brain
    Could make all a difference on a given day we’ll never be the same

    A dress for any occasion
    A mask for any task
    A plot for any dream
    A scheme for everything

    We(re) thirsty
    Tongue twisted wringing with thirst
    For an escape from who we are
    Always lusting and wishing for status
    Recognition approval of what we are
    Who we are becoming and what we’re meant to be
    All together we sink into the body ephemeral


    25. Songwriter’s Hangover

    Similar to the song “The Challenge” written during the July 2017 song-a-day challenge, this is a meta song written during the challenge — about the challenge. During these periods I become obsessed with writing and recording, finding myself consumed with the song of the day, and often neglect sleep and other activities in the process. Some days it weighs heavier and I just have to default to commenting on the process and toll of the task at hand. I can’t remember distinctly but it sounds like I was losing sleep over the challenge and on this day decided to put that into a short song.

    I remember recording this distinctly. I went outside into the forest at night and recorded it in the dark with my back to a tree. Recorded in a single take on my phone with only my voice and the nylon guitar, in stark contrast to the multi layered and produced tracks I submitted for the rest of the challenge. I can feel the fatigue in the recording.

    By the way I let out a little whistle at 1:55 — that was directed at the dogs who were just about to run off to investigate something in the night.

    Sleepless nights
    Trying and trying
    To get it right
    Recordings songs like this

    Restless days
    Wake up late
    Really put the after in
    Afternoon

    Songwriters hangover
    I really put the after
    In afternoon


    26. Casual Encounter

    When it comes to writing, inspiration is all around us — a phrase, a line, a rhyme, an image can strike and spark an idea at any moment. I’m generally open to inspiration at all times, but during a challenge like this, where I must find inspiration every day, write something new every day, the intensity of the search increases significantly. Every conversation, every drive, everything that I read or watch, every dream and thought and feeling is under consideration to be the subject of the next song. In this case, an ordinary enough event, which would typically just scare the shit out of me and be forgotten, became the basis for a short song that would find life beyond the challenge as an irregular but frequent staple in the live set of The Planet Of.

    Casual Encounter is about a close call with a deer crossing the highway one night during the challenge. The song tells, in simple detail, the experience of time slowing down in a moment as I’m speeding down Highway 101 and suddenly a deer very casually walks out into the road in front of me. People always tell you it’s better to hit the deer straight on than to swerve, lose control, or crash into an oncoming car. Well, in this case it was just the two of us on this lonely stretch of highway in the dark. In that moment when time slowed down, it crossed my mind that I would just have to hit this deer — but as the deer froze for a moment, and I slammed the brakes, I managed to swerve and miss contact. In my rearview I could see it continue on, perhaps with a bit more urgency than when it stepped into the road in front of me.

    I wanted this song to evoke that feeling of traveling down the road, nearly crashing, the intensity of the moment of near collision. The original demo was a short song, somewhere around two minutes, but eventually with the band we extended the form, included a longer guitar solo, an instrumental break, and pushed the last few lines of the song. My vocal inspiration for the original demo was the Dead Kennedys — I tried to do my best Jello Biafra, approximating his signature brand of fast, bratty punk vocals, which I can’t say I’m very proud of as I listen back all these years later. There is a more recent demo that follows the expanded form, I will add it someday. Here is the original demo:

    Two seconds felt like half a minute
    I was moving 60 miles per hour
    Down a dark and desolate biway

    And she just pranced out into the road
    So blasé so blasé
    Like it was no big shit
    She hadn’t a care in the world
    Casual

    For that stretched out moment I was in a panic
    I accepted that I might just have to hit her
    I slowed til the point I started losing control
    That shit was all bad I barely missed her
    But she just kept on scootin’ across the road
    So casual
    So casual


    27. Milk & Cookies

    This is the last piece I put together for the 2018 song a day challenge. It is a short instrumental, built around an acoustic guitar melody. Listening now it feels like a send off tune, punctuating the end of a huge burst of creative energy and expressing over the course of the month. There isn’t much else to say here so that’s all folks!

  • The Challenge: July 2018 Pt. 1 – Songs 1-13

    Introduction

    Before I get to the songs, some context around this batch. A year had elapsed since the first songwriting challenge, which I’d begun just before embarking on a major, life-changing quest to find a new home. That quest will surely be the subject of future entries, but in the months following the 2017 song-a-day challenge I essentially closed one chapter of my life and began another that carries to the present day — a new life, a new home, a shift from a lifestyle of constant extended travels and fleeting returns to a life among friends and family. I arrived on the Oregon coast in August 2017, so by the time July rolled around again I was in my first full summer in Oregon.

    At that point the house was functioning more as a halfway home than the solitary space or family home it would become later on. There were quite a few friends and roommates coming and going over those months. (In the challenges the following year, most everyone had moved out and I began living alone for long periods, which led to very different processes of recording and writing.) I believe the majority of these songs were written and recorded in an upstairs bedroom — the smallest room in the house, which I’d turned into a simple dedicated recording space with just a laptop and interface, a couple of mics, and a Casio keyboard that can be heard on a number of the songs. (That same keyboard can be heard back in the 2017 challenge on Chasing Cars, which was recorded almost entirely on it.)

    For me, writing and recording tends to be a solitary practice. I don’t remember being bothered by my housemates, but their presence surely influenced the process, and there was some collaboration happening that I’ll get to in the individual songs. This batch also followed a period of travel that was significant for me — I spent the spring of 2018 traveling in Europe, between mainland Spain, the Canary Islands, back to Spain, then into France and Germany. Some of the inspiration and writing from that trip made it into these songs.

    I was also doing a lot of experimenting with recording and writing during this challenge. Instead of my more typical approach — sitting with an acoustic guitar, writing chords, lyrics and melodies, then recording them — I was starting many of these projects by experimenting with sounds in the DAW (still GarageBand at this point), building songs up as collages from loops, programmed drums, and keyboard parts. Several of these have no guitar or bass on them at all.

    In writing this entry I’ll be returning to a number of these songs, listening to them for the first time in ages. A handful found new life in live performance — solo and with The Planet Of — but plenty never went beyond the challenge. I’ll be revisiting the ideas, tracing what I can remember about the process and inspiration, and sharing how I feel about them today. One special note about this batch: I was able to find the original Facebook group we used for this round, so I’ll be digging through it for any context I might have lost to time.

    Somehow — even before digging back into the recordings — this period feels less vivid and visceral in my memory than the July 2017 tracks. I’m not sure why. I’ll return to that question by the end and see if anything has been illuminated. Here I go.


    1. An Uplifting Indie Pop Song

    This is one of the most genuinely positive and earnest songs I’ve ever written. It’s uncharacteristically sincere — and as the title suggests, I couldn’t take that sincerity all the way to the finish line. Sometimes a working title gets attached to an idea and just sticks; at this point I don’t know what else I’d call it, and regardless, the title describes exactly what the song is.

    I remember finding the riff first — the song was built around the melodic acoustic guitar you hear in the intro, which immediately evoked the mood of the verses. It was written in response to a conversation I’d had with a friend just before the challenge began. I can’t remember the details, only that she was struggling — feeling depressed and discouraged in life. My first thought with the brightness of the riff was just what I’d want to tell her, some words of encouragement: simply, don’t you worry about one damn thing, you’ll be okay. I’m prone to anxiety and depression myself, and phrases like that don’t always make for the best help or land as effective — but I was writing from a genuine place, with her in mind.

    The song came with a particular stylistic flavor from the start, so I kept pulling that thread and leaned into it, resisting any inclination toward silliness, absurdity or darkness. It came out sounding like the kind of indie pop I might’ve been listening to in the late 2000s or early 2010s. I even programmed some claps in there — this might be my only song with claps. I never performed it and never really revisited it beyond the occasional listen over the years. I have a small batch of songs that sit in this register, and I’ve considered putting them together and re-recording them as a project. Maybe someday. For now I’m just happy to listen, and happy that the challenge gave me the incentive to tap into this and make something simply positive. It’s honestly something I rarely reach for when I write.

    Don't 
    You worry
    About
    One
    Damn thing
    We'll be okay
    We'll be okay

    We did not choose to be conflicted
    Stuck in the muk of anxieties
    We are meant for something greater than these
    Insecurities

    We are worthy
    Of all good things
    That come our way
    That come our way...

    2. His Royal Mop

    Ah, His Royal Mop. This one was a live staple and fan favorite with The Planet Of. Just before the song-a-day challenge began in mid-July, my dear friend Liam Warden reached out and proposed a one-on-one song challenge — we’d each suggest a topic to the other, with two weeks to write a song about it. The very first topic he gave me was simply “Trump’s wig.” I loved it, and I accepted.

    I wrote the bulk of this in one sitting. Once I started playing the intro riff it just came out, line by line and riff by riff. The original version was quite short, but eventually we arranged an extended version for live performances. For the lyrics I really just tried to stay true to the prompt — I wasn’t attempting any kind of political statement or deep social commentary. I started from the old controversy over whether Trump has real hair or wears a wig. Compared to today’s controversies, that seems almost quaint — simpler times, in hindsight. Writing about a presidential wig gave me the chance for some ridiculously silly lines: “blowing in her (America’s) wind, anchored by cosmetic pins,” and “surely you’da seen it, I wonder who’s gotta clean it.” Some real poetry at work here.

    The final piece plays as a genuine rock anthem. It was so fun to play live, though to be honest, in some rooms I was a bit nervous about how it would go over, and I definitely got some strange looks along the way. But like I said, it became a fan favorite — a song folks would request over the years. This is a more recent demo recorded with The Planet Of:

    There’s a new piece in Washington D.C.
    Everybody’s seen it boy that piece is making waves
    Making waves and sparking controversy in the streets
    Some just won’t believe it
    Others don’t wanna see it

    But god damn it’s taken our darling nation by storm
    Scoured across the flag
    It’s got America in a bag
    Blowing in her wind
    Anchored by cosmetic pins

    Trumps wig
    Trumps wig
    Trumps wi-i-i-i-ig

    The worlds most famous mop
    ‘Less you been under a rock
    Hiding from bad politics and “bad-er” hair

    Surely youda seen it
    Wonder who’s gotta clean it
    That thin fluff of stuff on top of that goon that everybody knows
    The latest piece in the White House

    Trumps wig
    Trumps wig
    Trumps wi-i-i-i-ig

    God bless America and Trump’s wig


    3. Little Dreams

    This was written as a short song — but instead of being inspired by a particular dream, it’s about the dreams I don’t remember. One moment I could be in the middle of a dream, having a very visceral, emotional, sensory experience, and the next I’m awake with no recollection. I still had the experience, I lived it, but by the time I woke it’s like the dream just slipped away. I’m left with a kind of remembrance — I can feel that I was somewhere, that I met somebody, had some conversation, that there was an image or sound that was with me, yet it’s gone. That’s what I was trying to capture. I fleshed it out a bit more into a developed version I never quite finished a few years back. I think I’ll revisit it, and if I do, I’ll include it below alongside the original demo.

    Little dreams
    Fall out of my ear
    Soon as I awake
    They slip away

    Sometimes I wake up stressed
    I remember something fuzzy
    But I forget the rest
    I always wake up buzzing

    Little dreams
    Sailing away
    With a part of me

    4. Easy Quick Song

    At the time of this challenge I was just starting to settle into some routine in my new life on the Oregon coast. I wasn’t working a lot, but I had a couple of regular guitar students and some audiovisual work in the county. Not extremely busy, but more regular commitments than the previous year, when I could give myself almost entirely to the challenge. Some days I could focus on writing all day, but a lot of these songs were written or imagined more in passing, while driving between lessons or gigs.

    This one was written one evening when I knew my time and energy would be short. I remember driving home and coming up with the idea that I just needed to write something simple and quick to keep up with the challenge. I didn’t want to spend a lot of time recording or finessing it, so I think I wrote the lyrics before I had any musical structure in mind. It was also an example of stylistically pushing in a different direction — where a lot of these songs were more electronic, this one I decided to lean into rock and guitar. I thought about doing a simple power-chord punk jam, but it ended up more elaborate, with guitar layers and a few distinct sections. It got a little more complicated than I’d set out for, and I was spending more time on the arrangement than I’d wanted, but in the end I was quite happy with it. I like short songs that still feel developed — a very quick journey. This one has a distinct intro and outro plus a sort of chorus, all in a couple of minutes. I remember the late, great Chris Swanson giving me props on this one in particular. He was a staple in the songwriting groups, always coming up with creative, well-done songs day after day, challenge after challenge — so props from him I was happy to take.

    Easy quick song
    Shouldn’t take long
    I don’t got much time
    Living on the grind

    Everything’s a chore
    In this busy world
    Weeks are gone before I get to know them
    Anyway I always seem to blow them

    Easy quick song
    Shouldn’t take long
    I don’t have the time
    Living on the grind


    5. 13th (Unlucky Day)

    This one had a pretty loose concept, and I was taking an experimental approach with the arrangement — built around a repeating keyboard part. I guess I was thinking about the Friday the 13th that had just passed that June, before the challenge began. I’m not superstitious, but I started writing about this unlucky day, and soon connected it to a recurring theme in my dreams over the years: zombies.

    Since I was a child I’ve had many zombie dreams, ranging from legitimately terrifying nightmares to amusing, thrilling, adventurous survival dreams. One notable one, from my early 20s, began in a hilly coastal town with old buildings and cobblestone streets. I looked around to see chaos — people fleeing, dozens of violent, brainless zombies running through the streets attacking anyone in reach, including me. Very quickly I was attacked, and the dream started over, back at the same cobblestone starting point. This time I made it a little further before I was overtaken again — and it restarted once more, except now I felt a stronger urgency to escape. I abandoned running and started flying, which is an important skill worth developing for any lucid dreamer — especially one who finds themselves pursued by brain-eating zombies on a semi-regular basis. I flew high above the town, could sense the chaos below, and made my way to a stretch of forest that sloped down to the ocean. I descended onto the beach and had a few peaceful moments — the town far behind me, my best escape yet. But after some time I could hear the zombies rushing through the forest, down the hill toward me. The dream ended with me looking out to the ocean with a sense of resignation and acceptance. I did my best. All I can do is try again. But before they reached me, I woke up.

    The flying trick doesn’t always work. In another zombie dream years later, closer to the time of writing this song, my brother and I were hiding in a building with zombies outside. When I saw a chance to pick a couple of them off, I summoned some kind of weapon and shot at them — which completely blew our cover, and suddenly the building was being rushed by a legion of them. I immediately took to the sky and flew away, only to look back and realize I was still being pursued. My last thought before waking was: oh shoot, these aren’t zombies — they’re witches! Which made sense at the time. I woke up laughing.

    I can’t remember if one specific dream inspired this song, more just a particular atmosphere I’ve experienced across dreams over the years. My dreams are often quite dark, the colors desaturated — I believe this actually helps with my lucid dreaming, helps me maintain the distinction between vivid waking life and the dream world. I was imagining a dark, quiet, gray city where I walk the streets alone, but I can feel I’m being followed — watched, stalked by slow-moving zombies that want to tap my brain. That’s an unlucky day. The concept is loose and the lyrics were pretty late, but I was just trying to achieve an atmosphere that evoked the scene and built to some jump in intensity.

    Unlucky day
    Unlucky day
    Unlucky day
    Unlucky

    A city full of zombies
    Had a dozen following
    Trying to tap my brain
    Silently stalking me

    Unlucky day
    Unlucky day
    Unlucky day
    Unlucky

    6. Monster

    This is a fantasy song, meant as a sort of declaration against the powers that be — specifically the powers that divide us, break us down and turn us against each other in ideological and class warfare. Back then I was still hanging onto some fantasy that the common people might unite and rebel against these forces, fight for our own independence, freedom, and basic human decency. In the song I referred to a monster, and began to imagine that force personified as an actual beast — supernatural in shape and power, poisoning our minds, killing us, but no longer tolerated. The song becomes a cathartic, violent fantasy: the way we tear out its eyes and tongue, the way we unite to put an end to it, keeping pieces of it as a trophy.

    It’s quite different from anything I’d typically write, and honestly I can’t quite remember what possessed me to write it at that moment in the challenge — though one doesn’t have to look far to imagine how I might’ve been feeling. Time has moved forward, and I remain hopeful but not optimistic, so I stick with the fantasy that all common, decent people will unite to take a stand against this monster and reclaim our minds and lives.

    This monster 
    Is falling to his knees
    He's angry and kicking up a shit storm
    He's poisoned our minds and taken our lives
    This monster
    (Now) we will
    Pull him
    Down
    His sweaty/crooked brow stinks
    The all seeing beast
    We'll tear out his eye
    We'll roll it down the street
    We'll scream for all to meet
    We will not wear disguises
    We will pull him down
    Burst his belly open
    Bring life back to the living in the act
    Reclaim the light from the shadows of our friends
    Dislocate his jaw
    He has not deceived us all
    His twisted tongue will become a trophy
    We might be sick but we're ain’t soft and sorry suckers who won't stand up
    This monster
    Is falling to his knees
    He's angry and kicking up a shit storm
    He's poisoned our minds and taken many lives but this the end
    But we are
    Pulling him
    Down

    7. Unplugged

    The first version of this song was written and submitted for the 2017 challenge. I recorded a very rough demo and was never quite happy with it, so I brought it back and updated it during the 2018 challenge — the 2018 demo is the only version that survives. Musically it opens with an upbeat, slightly progressive guitar riff, then drops into a halftime hip-hop groove over a couple of beautiful chord changes. I’m sort of rapping the verses — not in style exactly, but in the cadence.

    The song is an expression of something I’ve grappled with for many years. Ever since using Facebook and Instagram, I’ve felt conflicted and genuinely concerned about the effects these platforms have on our social lives, our sense of identity, our language, and our relationship to real physical reality. I’d been theorizing that through these platforms, many common words were losing meaning — their definitions splitting and splintering in our minds. Words that once referred to deep relational things — friend, connection, like, chat — repurposed to describe surface-level digital interactions. Dead words standing. I find this extremely unfortunate.

    By the time I revisited the song in 2018, I had deleted my Instagram and Facebook, keeping only an account under a fake name to participate in the songwriting group. Eventually I gave in and used Facebook for Marketplace and local groups, which led to changing the account to my real name, and after a few years, returning to Instagram to promote my music and the podcast. From early 2024 into 2025 I was posting regularly, and truthfully I found it quite effective. But the discomfort kept taking precedence, and eventually I resolved to remove nearly everything I’d posted. I haven’t made a new post in nearly a year. A lot of this coincided with me beginning to build this website — and now that the site is taking shape and I feel more motivated to get the word out, it’s unfortunately still through these platforms that I have the most reach. I remain conflicted, and I haven’t found a way to use them that feels good.

    This song is all about that conflict — my concern about the damage to our language and our sense of genuine connection. It becomes a declaration: I want to live. I want to experience life fully, outside of these hopeless mediums.

    Who
    and what
    Are we
    Supposed
    To be
    How did social life become symbolic and numerical
    The fluid and spontaneous was dropped for the mechanical
    Now everyone we know flows in a stream at our convenience
    We look into the window and see images of each of em
    They’re reaching to the glass for some kind of recognition
    Their eyes move up and down scrolling every which direction and
    It’s hard not to compare with all the popups everywhere
    How can we progress if we don’t stress the way we press
    If our page is incomplete and we don’t know what to share
    Will we be forgotten will our story end there

    Don’t – Plug – Me in
    I – Want – To live
    I want to taste the clean air on my lips
    I want to feel fresh water on my hips
    Don’t plug me in I want to stay alive
    Yes I mean to say I want to go outside
    (And stay outside)
    I want to walk the pace of true experience
    I want to be removed from hopeless mediums
    Don’t want to touch the glass any longer
    Don’t want to fuck the glass and feed the monster while it grows stronger
    and changes the meaning of the words of yesteryear
    Chat like and message (dead words standing)
    Followers follow and request
    Profile page react share friends groups and connection
    All these words are losing definition
    We traded our terms for theirs and broken our connections
    Given up our energy lives and privacy to the cold and indifferent machine on the glass

    Don’t – Plug – Me in
    I – Want – To live
    Don’t – Plug – Me in
    I – Want – To live


    8. Eight Plays (For the Ukraine)

    SoundCloud has long fallen from its position as a top place to discover and share music, but I still use it — putting up my songs, making playlists, quickly referencing and listening to my own catalog online. I’ve never put any real care into promoting there; instead people would randomly find my music, and over the years I’d be surprised to see a song of mine on someone’s playlist or on repeat by a stranger somewhere far away.

    I began writing this song after seeing I was getting plays in Ukraine, which I thought was interesting. This was years ago, before Ukraine was in the regular news for the conflict with Russia, and I had no real reference point for the place. I wasn’t getting many plays at all, so seeing someone in Ukraine find my music and listen over the course of a few days inspired me to write a song for them. I started with the repeating “eight plays in the Ukraine,” which became the ending vamp, and quickly thought it could be an interesting experiment and challenge to write the song in Ukrainian.

    I started looking up resources online for Ukrainian phrases and pronunciations, and was surprised how few I could find — but I did find one page geared toward travelers and new students of the language. I selected some of my favorite phrases, did some translating of a couple of other lines on my own, and once I pieced them together I spent time on the pronunciations, writing them out phonetically and practicing. I still haven’t had a chance to get feedback from an actual Ukrainian speaker, and I don’t know if my mystery fan ever heard it. I built the melody one phrase at a time in this foreign language. I can’t vouch for the pronunciation or whether the intonation makes sense. What started as a simple thank-you and silly tribute to my Ukrainian listener ended up becoming a fully developed bilingual rock jam with a few distinct sections and melodies. If anyone does speak Ukrainian and gives it a listen — I’d love to hear your thoughts. How’d I do? Does it make any sense in context?

    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    This one's for youПриємно познайомитися
    (Nice to meet you)
    Ви дуже особливі
    (You are very special)
    вісім мій улюблений
    (eight is my favorite)
    Мені подобається українська мова
    (I like the Ukrainian language)
    Однієї мови ніколи не досить
    (One language is never enough)
    Принесіть чашку свіжими фруктами
    (Bring a cup with fresh fruit)
    Я вегетаріанець
    (I am a vegetarian)
    Ти вийдеш за мене заміж?
    (Will you marry me?)
    Я просто жартую
    (I'm just joking)
    Я не розмовляю добре українською
    (I don't speak Ukrainian well)

    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    Eight plays in the Ukraine
    This one's for Ukraine

    9. We Thirsty

    This is a song about a phenomenon I observed for years among my friends and myself — one that in a sense continues to this day. It comes with just being broke. Most of my friends and I don’t come from wealth or educated families with property and businesses, and despite all our skills and intelligence and experience, there’s a lot of working dead-end jobs, food service, gig work to get by. So a very common reality was being out and about, hanging out, and realizing we were too broke to do much.

    I understand the struggle — it’s a luxury to eat out — but one piece always stood out to me. I remember plenty of times with friends, before or after a gig or rehearsal or just hanging out, when someone would suggest grabbing food and someone else would say they were too broke. And most of the time if we did eat, fast food was on the menu — Jack in the Box, McDonald’s, Taco Bell, Del Taco, somewhere you could get something for five bucks or less. (This was some time ago; I haven’t eaten at those places in years.) But the thing that partially inspired the song was seeing people too broke to buy cheap food who somehow always had their vices on hand — alcohol, tobacco, marijuana. So the song is about that: living in a dust bowl where we can hardly breathe, have little hope or dreams, can hardly afford a meal, yet always manage to have a drink and a smoke ready. If I were to rewrite it today, I’d lean more into the fact that these vices serve as a kind of medicine to help the struggle go down. As written, it just ends by noting we might be addicted. Oh well.

    Life in the dust bowl 
    We can hardly breathe
    Mirages stretched across the road
    We're thirsty
    We're craving something juicy
    Dancing in the mirage
    We’re never getting quenched
    We're thirsty
    We're craving something juicy
    Dancing in the mirage
    Life in the everyday
    It's burning outside
    Two hundred degrees
    And we don't believe in good things
    We're thirsty
    We're chasing something juicy
    Dancing in the mirage
    We’re broke
    It’s a joke
    We can hardly cop a meal
    But we’ve always got a drink and a smoke
    Life in the every day
    Our only to relief is
    Alcohol
    Our only to relief is
    Alcohol
    Our only release is
    Alcohol
    Everybody loves it
    Alcohol
    We might be addicted
    Alcohol

    10. Water > Gold

    I was inspired to write this after listening to a NASA podcast about the present and future of space colonization — particularly the prospects of human colonies on the moon. One detail stood out: they talked about how scarce and valuable water would be in a space colony, noting specifically that water would be far more valuable than gold on the moon. That point alone inspired the title and the central line.

    Musically it’s built around a couple of riffs, the main one reminding me of circus music or something like that. I had a few visuals in mind — an approach to the moon, homes and structures spread across a lunar hillside, personal robots being sent down into the icy depths of craters below the colonies, where the sun don’t shine, to collect and process usable water. I’ve always viewed this as an unfinished song — more of a sketch, something I wanted to get back to eventually and just haven’t yet.

    Moon moon moon moon

    Housed on sunny peaks
    We send our robots down
    Into total freezing darkness
    Off they go
    To harvest fuel
    Greater than gold

    Water water water water

    Moon moon moon moon

    11. UFO

    This is a pretty interesting one. It’s sort of about aliens — which I absolutely do not believe in — a fantastical, sci-fi kind of song.

    I’ll be honest: this one took several days to piece together. To survive the song-a-day challenges I’d simplified the rule for myself — instead of writing, recording and submitting one brand-new thing every day, I treated it as: start something new every day, and finish something new every day. In practice that meant I’d often have two or more new ideas going on any given day. Usually the song I started that day would be finished and submitted that day, but with UFO I’d started it within the first couple of days and kept pushing its submission because the recording grew more ambitious than I could finish in a day. I had the concept and a lot of the riffs, but I kept working it piece by piece, and when I recognized I wouldn’t have the focus to finish it as I wanted, I’d push through something else — like Easy Quick Song — instead. I must’ve worked at this one for at least five days before I finished the demo.

    The first inspiration for the lyrics came from an experience around 2014 or 2015. I was hanging out with a group of friends and bandmates, out in a large grass field — I can’t remember if it was a public park or if we’d hopped a fence into a schoolyard. It was late afternoon; the sun had just about set in the west, and the sky was pink and red and yellow, painted with smog. We were moseying through the field talking when all of a sudden we looked up to see an object ripping through the sky. The sky wasn’t dark — I’d only ever seen shooting stars at night — and this was bigger, brighter, and lasted longer than any I’d ever seen. That image remains vividly in my memory.

    So the first lines refer to that. I’m sure we joked immediately about aliens and UFOs, but I don’t believe in aliens. I recognize that’s not the most popular position these days, or maybe among the company I keep, but I’m a skeptic — and despite having witnessed some wild sights in the sky and heard some compelling personal testimonies, I don’t believe we’re being visited or secretly inhabited by creatures from another planet. Regardless, I thought I’d have some fun, so the song becomes a fantasy: it begins with a UFO sighting and gradually turns into an open letter to these visitors who revealed themselves to me that day. I write about feelings of alienation — no pun intended — and not belonging in this world. I think that’s a common feeling, but I’d say it has more to do with the human condition, with human psychology, with discrepancies in social identity and the pressures of cultural conformity. I don’t believe we could be more human anywhere but this earth, which is our one and only home, our paradise. So what begins as a confession and a call for rescue turns into an acknowledgment of the wonderful things this world has to offer. If visitors did come, I’d want to show them everything — this is such a geologically diverse, alive planet: active volcanoes, deserts, mountains, jungles, tundras, so much of it covered in water in all its forms, such an abundance of life that would fascinate any curious visitor. In the same way I love to host international friends in the US and show them all our grit and glory, I love this image of taking an extraterrestrial around the planet to admire everything earth has to offer. At the end I acknowledge that I love this earth and I’m not really sick of it — I just want to experience something different, something new — and then I’ll be ready and waiting to be picked up and taken away. There’s a line I like: maybe the clouds are just projections that paint the sky to obscure the heavens.

    I remember the light that sliced the sky
    Straight cross the middle in day time
    Like a scene from apocalyptic dreams that pass in the night I watched in awe and when you disappeared I knew

    That was no falling star
    I've watched stars fall before
    You showed yourselves to me
    Space family

    I know I am flesh and bone
    Of Earth born and grown
    But on this rock I feel alone

    Maybe the clouds are just projections
    That paint the sky to obscure the heavens
    I've seen you once let me see you again
    Please take me away if you think I'm ready
    Won't you show me your home if someday you'll have me Take me away at your convenience
    I'll be here all day, everyday
    I'll be here all day, everyday

    I'm over this planet
    maybe you can't understand it
    as a tourist exploring everything is nice and new and has a sheen Of course there is a lot of good on our shiny planet it’s blue and green in many places but the disgrace is we're destroying ourselves and eating away at all the good things
    Well I digress I guess for a visitor now is as good a time as any So pick me up and I'll take you around
    I’ll show you all my favorite things and places
    and if we make it to the zoo
    I’ll show you my favorite people too
    We can flyby snowy caps
    depending on your climate or swim in warm waters
    I'll take you to my Islands
    I’ll show you volcanoes, forests, deserts
    I’ll show craters Great Lakes valleys and rivers
    You’ll have to sample all the great tasty plants sweet tart and bitter
    I don’t dislike this planet I love it
    It’s just that I’m interested in something different, something truly new
    If I show you mine will you show me yours

    Please take me away if you think I’m ready
    Show me your home if someday you'll meet me
    Take me away somewhere in outer space
    Take me away if you think I’m ready
    Show me your home if someday you'll meet me
    Take me away I’ll be here everyday

    I’ll play you a song
    I’ll show you some music
    I’ll show you some art
    Show you a movie
    Show you how we do it
    On planet earth
    Just pick me up
    I’ll be ready
    Just pick me up
    UFO UFO UFO UFO

    12. Hearing Loss

    This is a very noisy and sonically offensive piece that came together as a sound collage — a collaboration with my brother Ryan Feliciano, who plays all the wildest guitar parts, and my friend and roommate at the time, Fernando Soto, whose voice you can hear on the track. Fernando was in the room while I was experimenting with generating and recording feedback, and I’m glad I caught him as the commentator — noting that it’s too long, too loud, that it hurts to hear. I took some riffs I’d recorded, asked Ryan to record an extended solo and get a lot of ideas out, and then cut up and pieced together the final track from a mix of Ryan’s guitar, my original riffs, Fernando’s voice, and the feedback. Listen if you dare, and beware of hearing loss. Always.

    Ft Ryan Feliciano on guitar & the voice of Fernando Soto


    13. Missed Connections

    This song began over a month before the challenge started, in the final days of my spring trip to Europe, when I arrived in Germany. (As I mentioned in the overview, I’ve begun working on a larger entry covering this period of travel in greater detail.) Those last days, traveling from France to Germany to visit friends, were eventful and full of mishaps — one of which inspired this song.

    I flew into Berlin one morning, scheduled to meet an old friend for breakfast. I’d booked a bus from Berlin to Göttingen, about a four-hour trip. After breakfast we parted ways, and I made my way to the bus station only to find it closed for renovations — buses were doing their pickups at another station across town. Suddenly my relaxing stroll turned into a frantic scramble to reach this surprise station as fast as possible. I ran to catch a train, then a transfer, then ran several blocks, only to arrive minutes after my bus had left.

    Now, this is Germany, so there’d be other buses and trains — but this was also me in the final days of travel, having spent essentially all my money getting to Germany and booking this ticket plus the return trip to catch my flight home. These tickets were not cheap for me; I literally could not afford another. So after recovering from the scramble, I walked to the train station, found the next train to Göttingen on the schedule, waited, and boarded a train I couldn’t afford. This wouldn’t have been the first train I’d hopped, not even the first in Germany, but it had been a while, and I never got over the anxiety of waiting for the moment a train officer boards and starts checking tickets. In the past I’d exit as they entered, or even hide in the bathroom on longer trips — but this day I didn’t have it in me. So I waited anxiously, and when the moment came I explained the situation. I could sense the officer wasn’t having it, but ultimately he just told me next time get a ticket, and let me be.

    From that point on, for the last couple hours of the trip, I felt so relaxed. I’d just been through a stress bomb, with all the physical and mental symptoms that come with it, and now I was enjoying a peaceful ride out to visit my friends on the last days of the trip. I realized how ridiculous all that stress had been — how useless and unnecessary. Even if I’d gotten kicked off or ticketed, it wasn’t worth all that. I was reminded that when something doesn’t seem to be working out, eventually it leads to something better. There’s essentially always a way through any missed connection — there’s always another way. So I started writing lines on that train, and in the days visiting my friends I recorded a rough version on GarageBand on the iPad. It’s still a short song, more of a sketch, but it stands as a reminder of that day and those last days of travel — and of the idea that there’s no sense stressing about a missed connection.

    Missed connections 
    Are little more
    Than an open door
    Nothing missed is truly lost
    Only substituted

    Missed connections

    That which was meant
    To be
    Has become
    So simply
    Making way to pave the path to
    Further possibilities
    Making way to pave the path
    To unseen opportunities

    Continued in The Challenge 2018 Part 2 – Songs 14-27

  • Porchanga! 2026

    On the last day of May, the second annual Porchanga took place on a porch in Port Orford. The event was named by host and performer Heather Carpenter – a play on pachanga, the latin American term for a lively party with dancing, music, and jubilation.

    With minimal surprise, the day turned out to be extremely windy. The curtain we’d planned to draw between sets proved impossible. The balloon decorations and tapestries had to be nailed to the porch and nailed again as the party went on. Setup was tedious and time-consuming, complicated by what we eventually diagnosed as dirty power on the east side outlet – whose surges sent a loud pop through the monitors and main PA speakers at random spaced out intervals. After three rounds of redistributing power we finally abandoned those outlets altogether. Close to an hour later than we’d hoped, everything was stable and the show could begin.

    Porchanga was well attended. Inside the house people chatted and looked out to the music through a large window. On the porch itself a handful of seats offered the most direct listening experience. Down the steps a long potluck table held everything from baked goods to salads, fresh fruit, junk food, and a grill set up with meat and fresh tortillas being made from scratch. Further out, lawn chairs, blankets, and dozens of people standing and conversing and watching from a distance. Dogs and children running in the yard and jumping on the trampoline. I had no appetite through the windy setup and technical problem-solving, but I stashed a couple of fresh baked goodies for later – and by the time I’d finished playing hours later and my appetite returned, only fresh fruit and cabbage salad remained. I ate several small plates of both standing by the fire pit and listening to Pigasus Trio close out the night.

    Heather and I have been putting on events together for a few years now. Beyond our many performances together with the band Dry Spell, Heather and our bandmate Veronica Rockstar DeWitt envisioned and orchestrated Minimal Carnival – an annual one-day festival we put on in Port Orford in 2023 and 2024. We’ve hosted other house shows and events together at several locations over the years. In a sense Porchanga is a kind of mini Minimal Carnival – more intimate, centered on her porch. Both Minimal Carnival and Dry Spell deserve their own entries and will get them in due time.


    Theater

    Last year I was hired to shoot some performances at the Rogue Playhouse in Gold Beach, home of the Ellensburg Theater Company. I have been involved with productions at the theater since 2018, taking on various roles from providing sound and lighting to performing as a live musician and providing live foley and music during a series of radio plays. I’ve also recorded and produced radio adverts, shot photos and videos, and even hosted a Halloween film festival one year. For a couple of years before the pandemic we began hosting a regular open mic and jam night on Wednesdays, which became quite a lively event with a dedicated group of musicians and music lovers showing up week after week. Musicians would lineup on stage in a semicircle, passing the opportunity to lead a song one after another with everybody invited to join in as they liked. I spent many nights playing guitar – electric, acoustic or nylon – banjo, electric bass, and even started picking up upright bass under the tutelage of a great local musician Steve Boyer, who would bust out the craziest Balkan and Eastern European jams on his accordion. It was also the place where I first met Scott McTaggart which lead to the formation of The Planet Of. It was a great time while it lasted – but like many things, it ended when the pandemic began.

    I still remain involved with the theater occasionally. Last fall I was setting up to capture video and record the audio of their latest production when Laura Barsalou, who was working stage crew during the play, sat at the piano and played some tasty jams. We got to talking and I learned that she is now the sole music teacher in the Gold Beach school district, single-handedly running the music program between two schools. We exchanged info and kept in touch about collaborating at some point. It had been many months since I shared some of my most recent demos and invited her to help develop them – she expressed great enthusiasm but in the winter months when I expected to be home locked away in stormy weather working in the studio, we instead had the driest North American winter season on record and I spent half of it traveling between California and Oregon. The anticipated storms never came. Come May, Porchanga was on the horizon and I reached out asking if she’d like to perform on Heather’s porch. And so our musical collaboration began.

    I love performing with others. Most performances I’ve done in my life have been in the context of a band and whatever the gig I love to lock in and connect with those I share the stage with – something I don’t get to experience when playing solo. Solo playing is a much more vulnerable and awkward experience for me, something I’m still trying to understand on a deeper level and build confidence in. It’s so much easier to perform when you can rely on those beside you, listen and communicate with them, go wherever the music takes you together.

    One of the largest demotivating factors for performing with a band is simple logistics. Coordinating schedules involves people with different lifestyles, different obligations, different geographical locations. Rehearsing means finding a day and time where everyone can reasonably travel to the same location for long enough to make some progress. Most bands I’ve played with push for once a week rehearsals of no more than a few hours – enough to get some material together and get to know each other for a performance or recording, but hardly enough to go deeper, to build substantially more material. Many bands I’ve played with have fallen into the trap of putting together a bare minimum of material to fill the expected playtime and once that time is filled the gigs get booked and any rehearsals become more about keeping the ship shape than sailing into new waters. I grow fatigued playing the same material all the time. I want to play new songs. I want to take different approaches. I want to experiment. I want to take the same songs and mix them all up. I want every show to be a new experience, an opportunity to try something different.

    For this I’ve been greatly appreciating the projects and performances we’ve been putting together with Ben, Ryan, and Jeff. None of us are precious about a particular branding or style and we’re happy to entertain any idea that comes into the mix. But even then we’re lucky if we can get together once a week. Jeff now has three boys under the age of five. I find myself getting quite busy as the weeks go around, often away traveling or spending time at my alternate home base across the Oregon/California border.

    There’s also my own motivation around pulling together and maintaining a regular project. The difficulty is in reaching out – whether I feel like I might be bothering somebody, or I don’t feel ready or confident enough in the material or the vision, or I just don’t know when I’ll have the time or if the person will even enjoy playing together. I recognize that a lot of the hesitations I have around reaching out and pulling a band together are rooted in my own head. Yet I feel best when I play with others and what consistently pulls me out of these thoughts is playing with the right people. People that are motivated and excited to play make all these worries wash away. I’ve been fortunate and grateful for those I’ve been able to play with over the years.


    Putting It Together, Together

    I don’t look at any instance of a song as being the definitive version. I look at each of my songs as having infinite potential for reinterpretation – different arrangements, different stylistic choices, changes to form, instrumentation, tempo, dynamics. Playing with a band presents an opportunity to take a song to a new place and invite input from the other musicians involved. I will provide demo recordings when presenting a new song, but with that said I take a pretty open approach when it actually comes to putting a piece together. The best experience playing with others comes when everybody is contributing ideas, following their own instincts about what to play and when. I prefer for the musicians I play with to follow their own ear and imagination, to feel comfortable making suggestions, and I’m always willing to try things out. When I have a new idea I will always ask for their feedback and trust their instincts. I don’t believe my ideas are best simply because it’s my song. There will be times where I’ll request a specific approach or specific rhythm/melody, but in general the best collaboration comes when each musician gets to inject their own spirit into the performance. It gives that particular performance and arrangement a unique identity that comes from all of us, not just one person.

    Working through each song with Laura brought the opportunity to explore the harmony written within each piece and explore potential for vocal harmonies, more interesting textures between guitar and keyboard parts. I relied on her and the rest of the band for key decisions rather than having everyone learn the recorded parts to play them as recorded. There was a lot of discussion about possibilities and approach before trying different things out and seeing what worked best. Together with Laura we took a demo like Sweetheart, which starts full on with guitars, bass, and drums, and came up with a new form which introduced elements gradually between sections – making it entirely through the first verse and pre-chorus with just the two of us before everything locked in for the second verse.

    The logistics of rehearsing with four people across different schedules meant we had to be strategic. A series of one on one rehearsals with Laura and I laying the foundation, a single rehearsal with myself, Ben, and Ryan, another with myself, Laura, and Ryan, and finally the week of Porchanga, our first and last rehearsal as the full four piece band.

    The performance opened with Laura performing a piece by Joe Hisaishi, composed for the Studio Ghibli film Howl’s Moving Castle. It was a natural opener given that Sweetheart, the first song of our set, was itself inspired by that film – about wizards and witches, curses, chosen family, war and love. I thought it could be nice to start with a bit of fantasy before moving into more grounded territory.

    One of the things I was most excited about for the performance was a blues vamp I’d envisioned as connective tissue between songs. Rather than filling the transitions between songs with awkward silence, tuning, and pedal fiddling, we would return to a repeating riff that held everything together. It worked exceptionally well even beyond my expectations. Although the vamp was initially based on one chord, during the one and only full band rehearsal as we jammed on it I started to superimpose an instrumental piece I know from the great Big Bill Broonzy called Hey Hey – which introduces the IV and V chord for a proper blues form. People were dancing and reacting each time we went back to it. It became a sort of refrain that people came to expect, almost like the experience of playing a song that everyone knows. There was a familiarity and excitement about it. At one point we went to the vamp quickly and stopped, and our friend Yana from Rogue Strings who had been dancing exclaimed “god damnit Eric!” I was sorry to interrupt her dancing but found it hilarious. Another friend asked me the following week what the story was with that little vamp we kept playing.

    Excluding the vamps the setlist was as follows:

    Sweetheart
    Only Murder
    Perfect Time
    Another Day Another Dime
    The Vortex
    Our Golden Days Have Passed

    This particular set of songs came about in a single night of playing. I didn’t pull up a list or put much thought into the order before diving in. Instead I began with Sweetheart and moved from one song to the next following instinct, playing whatever felt right next. A progression began to reveal itself between songs, beginning with themes of fantasy and love before moving into social tensions and fear, through grief, acceptance, and resignation. In hindsight these may have been heavier themes than appropriate for a party – but they represented the emotions I was going through at the time.

    Only Murder was written in the wake of a series of high profile murders that dominated the talk of the internet over the course of several months last year. I know I wasn’t the only one experiencing the phenomenon of opening up Instagram or Facebook and seeing footage of people getting shot – more and more angles released and shared and scrutinized. Something deeply upsetting about it not only for the sheer violence but for something voyeuristic about witnessing somebody’s final moments, a stranger, and sharing in this as some kind of overnight cultural phenomenon. People watching, analyzing, making judgments, sharing opinions, arguing over the right and wrong of a person getting murdered. Turning murder into political talking points and as I write in the song into fuel for our agendas. Not the ideal subject for festive jubilations perhaps – but man I been feeling it.

    Perfect Time and Our Golden Days Have Passed both have full entries written around them. Another Day Another Dime and The Vortex will get their own entries in due time.

    There were quite a few moments of improvisation throughout the performance. Some of the songs relied on it entirely. I encouraged Ryan to play very busy bass parts throughout Another Day Another Dime. Laura was encouraged to improvise during pretty much every instrumental break in each song, taking most of the leads.

    The set flew by. We all agreed by the end that it went much better than we were expecting and better than it had during rehearsal – there was at least one song we never actually managed to play through in its entirety, only discussing song form and making decisions about parts. Ben expressed that he was happy with the performance and happy to hear the songs sounding more like songs and less like rough sketches or ideas. I couldn’t agree more. There were moments that were rough around the edges and I can’t say I was fully content with my own vocal performance – I couldn’t hear myself too well by the time I came to play and with all the delays I wasn’t going to put more time into dialing that in. But it went well.

    There is always a natural high that follows a good performance – a sense of excitement, even euphoria, that can last for hours and make it difficult to get to sleep. I often go home after a show and stay up late feeling inspired to write, to play, to dream. The decompression after performing is like an essential part of the ritual – chatting with friends and bandmates, getting props and feedback from the audience, and inevitably the least glamorous part – tearing down gear.

    In the case of Porchanga we had no time for any of that. We hopped straight into swapping out gear and places for the Shred band. After a little switcheroo of Ryan heading over to guitar, myself to bass, Ben keeping his seat on drums, and Laura heading off into the crowd to watch us play many more notes, we got set up and started playing. This was only the second performance of this particular project but our set had doubled since the first and we played a solid 40 minutes of guitar instrumentals. There were a few guitar nerds in the crowd but a lot of the attendees weren’t familiar with this type of instrumental rock. The reactions surpassed any expectation I might have had. People were impressed and entertained by the musicality and coordination involved – not easy pieces to pull off, especially not with the wind still blowing hard after several hours and having already played one full set. Cold fingers and all, we powered through and pulled it off.

    By the time we finished and packed down it was Pigasus Trio’s turn to close out the night. I grabbed a plate of whatever was left at the potluck table and stood by the fire pit while they ripped. It was a good night.

  • Finger Wizards

    Over the last few months I’ve been playing in a new band yet to be officially named but currently being referred to as The Port Orford Shreds. The band consists of Ben Horton on drums, my brother Ryan Feliciano on guitar and myself on bass. We’ve been talking about doing this project for several years, a project built around Ryan’s shred guitar playing – covering instrumentals from some of our favorite virtuosic shred guitarists. For me this project represents a return to a style of music and approach that I had essentially moved away from for about 15 years.

    In my early teens, at the time I started playing guitar, I was listening to a lot of punk music and began to be fascinated by more challenging and technical guitar playing. I was taking the obligatory run through classic rock guitar music like Led Zeppelin and AC/DC, eventually moving towards more heavy bands such as Black Sabbath and Metallica, quickly seeking more obscure and over-the-top technical guitar wizardry.

    I remember I was about 13 or 14 when my cousin visited and left me with a burnt CD with the word “SHRED” sharpied on the label. The first song completely blew my mind. I had never heard such over-the-top guitar playing (and singing), and I remember listening to this ridiculous falsetto, trying to transcribe any lyrics I could make out to figure out the name of this song and band. The song was Superheroes by the speed metal band Racer X, featuring Paul Gilbert, who ushered me down this rabbit hole of ridiculous, highly technical guitar playing that became popular in the 80s.

    Other songs I can remember discovering on this CD were the Racer X instrumentals Technical Difficulties and Scarified, Arpeggios from Hell by neo-classical shredder Yngwie Malmsteen, and Concerto by Cacophony, a project featuring super shredders Jason Becker and Marty Friedman. Naturally, with the discovery of these players I only wanted one thing, and that was to shred. There would be many other guitarists, bands, albums and songs I would grow obsessed with on my quest to shred.

    The golden age of shred seemed to have passed in the 80s and early 90s, but in 2007 it was a great year to be a fan, with Paul Gilbert releasing his first instrumental rock album – Get Out of My Yard. This album along with the follow up Silence Followed By A Deafening Roar are two of my favorite albums in this style and direct references and inspiration for the project.

    Sidequest:
    Not knowing better at the time, I used to pick with a strange technique which put a lot of strain on the top joint of my right index finger. As I began building up speed and playing more and more technical riffs and solos for long hours, I began to experience pain in my picking hand, namely in that index finger. This led to me drastically changing my picking technique, which led to a major step back in my speed and picking abilities. At this point in my playing I was getting into college and moving away from this sort of technical music, moving more towards playing in pop bands and original projects which didn’t require any shredding. Eventually I moved away from the electric guitar and picking entirely, taking a break from music to focus on studying and eventually embarking on my first world travels. After about a year without playing much, I picked up a cheap nylon guitar and essentially started over, with a major focus on fingerstyle playing, moving towards more simple, melodic pieces and songwriting.

    I had given up on any dreams of shredding, and up until the last few months pulling this project together, I feel my playing has somewhat stagnated for a number of years. I don’t practice as much as I used to and don’t play nearly as many hours. I haven’t really worked on any pieces that pushed my technical skills for many years, instead just focusing on songwriting, recording and performing original music.

    The songs we’ve been selecting for the shred project have been a return to the playing and practice I would spend countless hours with as a teenager. Many of these songs I had to start learning at around 50 to 70% speed, gradually working out the parts and lines and repeating and building up speed incrementally so I could pull them off with the band. I still have plenty of work to go in building up my chops, but it feels good to be working on material that’s challenging the limits of my playing and giving me the drive to work on guitar technique that I’ve neglected for years.

    In writing this entry I was reminded that the songs we are covering for this project are not only technical exercises, but each one connects to experiences that were significant in my early musical life. Growing up near Los Angeles meant I had regular opportunities to go watch shred guitarists like Paul Gilbert, Joe Satriani, Steve Vai, Guthrie Govan, John Petrucci, Buckethead and more. Some of my earliest adventures — before I ever traveled the world — were chasing these players down to see them play live.


    Racer X Live

    Paul Gilbert was my favorite guitarist and Racer X my favorite band across those years. My tastes have shifted quite a bit over the years, and it’s been many years since I’ve actively listened to Racer X, but at that point in my life their music meant a lot to me. By the time I discovered them they were inactive for years, and any chance of a reunion, tour or future releases seemed extremely unlikely.

    In early 2009 it was announced that Racer X would be getting back together for a one-off performance, hosted by Ibanez guitars to celebrate Paul Gilbert’s 20th anniversary with the company. The thing is, the event wasn’t open to the public — it was for Ibanez artists and staff, and otherwise only open to badge-carrying attendees of the NAMM trade show. NAMM (the National Association of Music Merchants) is an annual industry insider event. As Google puts it: “The NAMM Show is a trade-only event and is not open to the general public. It is accessible to music industry professionals, business owners, employees, educators, students, and approved media or content creators.”

    I was 16 years old. I couldn’t drive, let alone have any industry connections for a NAMM badge. Word had it that the event wasn’t actually being held inside the exhibition center, but at a hotel ballroom nearby. Still from everything I could find online, there was no way I was getting into this show.

    The morning of, I had a rehearsal with the high school drumline, and the entire time I had this horrible feeling that I was going to miss a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to see this legendary band. I just felt that I had to try. As soon as rehearsal let out, I called up the one friend I had with a license, explained the situation, and he was down for the mission.

    We took the long drive out to Anaheim — two awkward little teenagers sneaking around the Sheraton Park hotel, trying not to stand out. We found the ballroom the event was to be held at and there were signs posted that said it would be open to those with NAMM badges. Still no one was certain how strictly this rule would be enforced, with little to lose – we waited. After waiting in line for a few anxious hours unsure what would happen, about half an hour before the show, the staff opened the doors and we were in. I couldn’t believe it.

    The catch was that the room was split in two with the Ibanez insiders up front, with tons of space between them and a barricade that separated the rest of us. This was disappointing but I was happy to be inside. The show began with a live band set by guitarist Andy Timmons followed by a performance of Paul’s solo band. This was great even from halfway across the ballroom, but by the time Racer X took stage, I couldn’t take it anymore. I jumped the barrier. As I quickly shuffled up to the front of the room I noticed that several other fans followed me, and we proceeded to watch the performance from the front row, right up against the stage. All this made for one of the top experiences of my teenage years and one of my all-time favorite shows.

    Here’s a clip from that show:


    The Aristocrats

    In the years after the Racer X show, going to NAMM in Anaheim became a tradition — I got my first badge at 17 and returned several more times over the following years. The show is chaos and cacophony, both heaven and hell for music and gear nerds: hundreds of companies bringing out their teams and endorsed artists to demo the latest gear, as well as offer signings, clinics, and performances from these top musicians visiting from around the world. With the gathering of all that talent in one place, there are many special performances happening all around the event — some public, some, like the Racer X show, (technically) not.

    That brings me to the Aristocrats, whose song “Aristoclub” is in our shred set. The Aristocrats are the epitome of a supergroup — three of the most technically proficient players in the world today. The range of projects, styles and material this trio has performed over the years, individually and together, is mind-boggling.

    I first became aware of drummer Marco Minnemann through my Paul Gilbert obsession. He famously recorded and toured with Paul in the 2000s — including the Space Ship One album and, most notably for me, the Space Ship Live DVD, where the musicians wore orange space suits for their live-in-studio performances. Bassist Bryan Beller I first knew as a touring member of the cartoon metal band Dethklok. I was a huge fan of the show Metalocalypse, particularly the first season, and I listened to their first album countless times in my teen years. Although the band and music is an absurd and satirical take on metal and celebrity incompetence, the creator Brendon Small is a very competent, Berklee-educated musician and a highly skilled guitarist. Besides Metalocalypse, I also love his first show Home Movies, which has tons of great non-metal music. Bryan Beller is a regular collaborator and member of that touring band, and beyond it he’s recorded with countless artists, has a prolific solo output, and has a strong connection to the world of Frank Zappa alumni such as Mike Keneally.

    Now on to Guthrie Govan, who in my perception is the most consistently mind-blowing guitarist I’ve ever heard. An absolute wizard of the electric guitar, his musicality and virtuosity go beyond anything I could ever dream of. His one and only solo album, Erotic Cakes — named after one of my favorite Simpsons episodes — is an all-time masterpiece of the genre. I could never grow tired of listening to Guthrie’s melodic and inventive playing on this album, not to mention the equally inspiring, tasteful and virtuosic playing of Seth Govan on bass (Guthrie’s brother) and Pete Riley on drums. My understanding is that these three performed as a legendary underground jazz band for years called the Fellowship — a fitting name, considering I’ve seen people lately referring to Guthrie, with his greying long hair and beard, as the Gandalf of guitar. Guthrie had written two books, Creative Guitar 1 and 2, both of which were very inspiring and influential for me as a teenage guitarist. Unfortunately I’ve lost both books over the years, so I’m reminded now that I really should find copies of each and start digging in again.

    I’ve had the great pleasure of watching Guthrie perform live a number of times over the years, and a chance to meet and chat with him a few times along the way. Coincidentally, the first time I ever saw him in person was that same day as the Racer X show — just before it, in fact, as we were waiting in that line in Anaheim, unsure if we’d actually make it through the door. I left my buddy to go to the restroom, and as I was approaching, Guthrie was on his way out. I said hello and we had a quick chat. Every time I’ve talked with him, I’ve been overwhelmed by his humility, generosity and good humor. Just one of the coolest dudes ever, and an absolute musical genius.

    All this to say that I experienced a very special event during NAMM in January 2011. At the time I was playing with a band called Cockeyed Optimist, a female-fronted hard rock band based in Orange County, and through them I had my industry insider pass to NAMM that year. I was staying with my band mates at their home in Laguna Niguel during the event, catching excited rides up in the morning and exhausted rides back in the afternoon. NAMM is terribly exhausting — hours of constant noise, standing and walking, not to mention all the mingling, which by this point had an extra element to it, since I was studying music in college and kept running into people I was already playing and studying with out in the world.

    There was a buzz one day about a special performance — word that Guthrie Govan would be playing along with some other legends. So after the show, through my insistence, my bandmates and I drove out to the venue. As fate would have it, we were informed that the show was meant to have separate bands, but for one reason or another that fell through, and so Guthrie Govan, Bryan Beller and Marco Minnemann were left without supporting acts. They decided they would each learn and perform a few original songs together, as a band. The feeling in the room was electrifying. These legends were performing together for the first time, just for us, and the fun and excitement they were having was infectious. We didn’t know it then, but we were witnessing in real time the birth of what would become the Aristocrats — a band that would go on to record, write and perform together to this day.

    At about the halfway point, my friends were exhausted from the day and tired of indulging me, and they let me know the ship was sailing. I was caught with the same feeling I’d had at the Racer X show — that I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I missed this. So, in a time before Uber, with no certain or logical way to get back to their place in a neighborhood not serviced by public transportation, I let them know I would find my own way back. Shocked, they asked me seriously if I was sure, and I said yes. They left, and I enjoyed every second of that performance.

    Afterward, as people were making their way out — many of them surely returning to NAMM mayhem the next morning — I started making phone calls. I didn’t really know where I was, but I knew one of my college classmates and band mate in the college pop band lived somewhere in that general area. I called her, asked if she had any ideas, and she called another one of our class/bandmates. We began a relay — she picked me up and brought me to meet up with the other classmate, who then drove me out to Laguna Niguel. It was a mission, and just great fun hanging out with them along the way. I got there late and was buzzing, and the next day I was exhausted.

    It wouldn’t be too long afterward that I’d see these musicians perform again as the Aristocrats, on one of their early tours at the Baked Potato in Hollywood. And then in February 2024 — a whopping 13 years after that first performance — Ryan and I drove out to Portland to see the Aristocrats perform at one of our favorite venues, Mississippi Studios. It was one of their first shows after the release of their latest album, which I believe had only come out a few days before, so we got to watch some of the earliest public performances of that material. The energy of the band was much like their very first performance — three monster players totally cool, non-pretentious and down to earth, just having such a great time. Mississippi Studios has a balcony with a few seats upstairs and a walkway that goes out over and along the stage, and we watched the entire show from just over the stage, basically a bird’s-eye view just above the action. One of the songs we watched performed from the new album that night has made it into our set — “Aristoclub.” It’s one of their most straightforward and least shreddy songs, thankfully for our sake.


    St0rk

    The last musician I’d like to talk about in this realm of acrobatic guitar is Shane Gibson — lesser known than most of the other names I’ve mentioned, and tragically gone way too soon. In his lifetime he gained the most fame and notoriety as a touring guitarist for the band Korn. For the record, I always thought Korn’s music was dog shit. I remember being in elementary school and seeing the other little rocker kids who were all about Korn and Slipknot — neither of those bands ever clicked with me. Regardless, that was Shane’s big gig, but I was brought to his music through his performance and instructional videos. When I first discovered him, he only had one CD available, which I ordered and listened to on repeat. I believe those recordings were self-produced, and a couple of them were essentially demos for what he’d later release with the band Stork. I bought his instructional DVD, which was just impossible for me — he had an insane technique — but I would work through it anyway.

    For a time he was endorsed by Carvin guitars, which I loved. My Carvin Bolt is the guitar I’ve had the longest. At a time when I sold off all my guitars, pedals, amps and so on to fund a one-way international trip, this is the one guitar I kept, leaving it in the care of a trusted friend for years as I traveled the world. I would frequent the Carvin store in Hollywood on trips to Hollywood Boulevard. Meanwhile, in Covina, California, there was a lonely Carvin store that shut down several years before Carvin eventually closed all their stores and rebranded as Kiesel — but somehow, a little before that Covina store closed, they hosted a clinic by none other than Shane Gibson. He demonstrated his highly technical and inventive instrumental guitar songs, such as “Doooosh” and “Ducksinapond.” I had a chance to meet him then, and we ended up becoming online acquaintances.

    Not too long after, I reached out to him for a private lesson and drove out to his apartment in Culver City, California, where we had some good chats and a good lesson — he guided me on picking and on incorporating arpeggios into my playing. I watched as he grew more popular and widely known for his instrumental work and projects like SchwarzenatoR — an Arnold Schwarzenegger-themed metal band with drummer Thomas Lang, another super shredder, that incorporated samples and a humorous blend of technical metal playing and, well, Arnold Schwarzenegger. I was delighted to hear about the formation of the band Stork, whose first album had the definitive recordings of my favorite Shane Gibson instrumentals. Stork released that first album in 2009, and their second — which saw the band grow from an instrumental project to a vocal one featuring vocalist VK Lynne — was released in 2014, after Shane passed at the age of 35. His death sent shockwaves through the guitar world: a rising figure gone in his prime.

    The last time I saw Shane was at the NAMM show, I believe in early 2012. We ran into each other randomly, and I was touched by his enthusiasm, asking me genuinely how I’d been. We had a good chat and walked through the show together until he got to his next appointment, and then I went off wandering into the noise. It’s been an honor to learn, practice and perform his song “Ducksinapond” — to connect with his spirit and put some of his music out into the world. RIP Shane.


    Our current list of covers are as follows:

    Paul Gilbert – Love is the Saddest Thing, Hurry Up, Curse of Castle Dragon
    Racer X – Catapult to Extinction, King of the Monsters
    Shane Gibson/St0rk – Ducksinapond
    The Aristocrats – Aristoclub
    Nick Johnston – Sandmonster

    I cut together a video with portions of each of these songs from our last performance. You can watch it here:

    We’re now working on an instrumental arrangement of Zomby Woof by Frank Zappa, In the Goo of the Evening by Mattias Eklund — which features some of the most challenging rhythmic figures I’ve ever learned – and Uncle Skunk by Guthrie Govan.

    These days I don’t listen to a lot of shred music — I haven’t for a number of years. My tastes change and shift around all the time, and I’ve got a list of artists I always return to and albums I’ll listen to on repeat throughout the years. But it’s been a pleasure to return to material that brought me so much excitement and inspiration at an earlier point in my playing. The material still challenges and inspires me greatly. And although I’d given up on my dream of playing such technical guitar, even though I’m playing bass in this project, there are still plenty of technical challenges to my playing — it’s demanded lots of hours, focus and attention to learn the parts and keep up with my bandmates.

    Beyond the songs, we’ve got a short list of other covers in mind, but we’re shifting focus towards original instrumentals, of which both Ryan and I have several contributions. I’ll finish by sharing a recording of a very early instrumental piece of mine which I called simply “Crazy Stuff.” I originally wrote it when I was about 15 or 16. Here’s a recording from 2015 done entirely by Ryan. It’s got this feeling of 2000s metal all over it. He recorded it according to my arrangement, but really added some awesome leads and extra guitar layers. Soon we’ll be working out a new arrangement for the three-piece band.

    I’m really excited for this project, especially to be digging into original music. Ryan has a huge catalogue of ideas that would fit this type of project perfectly, and we’re beginning to dig into them now.

    One last note: in the time since I began this entry, a new contender for the band name emerged naturally in a conversation — my favorite name yet, “Finger Wizard.” I thought it was perfect, silly and stupid – but perfect. Unfortunately the band mates disagreed, hopefully they come around. Otherwise we continue as “The Port Orford Shreds”

    Our next performance will be on July 25, 2026 at Mr Eds Underground Pub in Port Orford. Rock on.

  • Website – Visions Revisited

    Hello reader of these words. Over the last week I’ve been making some design and page updates to the website and revisiting a number of older entries where I have made some changes. This will be all about the website with reflections on where it began and how it’s developed so far, along with some goals moving forward.

    In the spring of 2025 I was traveling the US, and I began to really try to come up with an alternative means of sharing my music and my creative projects outside of the big social media and streaming platforms. At that point my website followed a pretty standard model for a musician’s webpage — geared towards directing people to my social media and streaming accounts, set up to have a professional landing page to link when booking gigs. I hadn’t actually shared any of my music or video directly; instead I was embedding YouTube videos, Instagram posts, and a Spotify player.

    Nostalgic for the days of the early internet, when each website had its own unique identity, function and potential, I began to consider rebuilding the website as a means to share my work directly. I remember the experience of surfing the web before social media, even before google. Where finding a new website felt like a great discovery. I remembered the excitement of the website stumbleupon – where with every refresh a new, interesting website would appear to be explored. This was the first exciting thought for a rebuild, what if I set up a website that would provide a new article on every refresh? Each refresh a song, a video, a photo, a story, etc? Then I started considering the practicality of that. If this is all centered around my world, I would need to create dozens, if not hundreds of articles for this idea to work. And so I started scheming on how to achieve that.

    Informed by dozens of interviews conducted for the Songwriting Mind project, I was inspired to start cataloging not only all my songs, but the stories, history, and my thoughts and feelings behind each one. It was during that travel that I began to lay down the groundwork, with a vision of eventually writing articles for each song and building a website with hundreds of entries — covering everything I’ve written and recorded so far, as well as everything to come.

    On September 4, 2025 – about 5 months later – I published my first entry: Website – Visions where I expressed my simple intentions with the new website. Now over 9 months later I am revisiting the vision and intent.

    If I had to explain to someone simply and casually what the website is, I’d tell them it’s just a place where I can share my thoughts, recordings, and videos without using the big streaming and social media platforms. What it’s grown into is a new medium for me to share my thoughts and the things I make. I feel that it’s still in its infancy and still unfolding — with each article I seem to push out a little further, and the scope seems to keep growing.

    So far I’ve been doing a lot of retroactive work, reflecting on songs I’d written over the last years and reflecting on travels. There have only been a few entries written from the present moment or with more recent updates, but there’s a lot of work to capture. I still have this goal of eventually writing articles about a lot of the songs I’ve written, but beyond the songs it’s expanded — I’d like to share stories and experiences from my life, largely because the events in my life are so closely connected to what I create.

    I feel that a lot of this work is just for my own records — in a way that I might write a song to reflect on and process events from the past, getting all my thoughts out and publishing them in a coherent way feels like a means to process and let go of something that has no other container besides my own memory.

    The more entries I complete, the more I realize this process is similar to songwriting. I set the intention to write an article about one thing, but in pulling that thread I often find myself reflecting on or piecing together history I hadn’t even considered when I set the intention to write in the first place. In this way, this project has been providing me with time to reflect deeply, to piece together and trace back these moments in my creative life — an unintended and welcome practice that I hadn’t pursued outside of conversation and songwriting in this sort of depth and frequency before.

    I have always felt conflicted around using traditional modern means of sharing and publishing the things I create, and it has been an extreme demotivator for years now. I don’t want to use Instagram to promote my music. I don’t want to release songs on Spotify. It doesn’t feel right, and it never did. And so, in seeking some kind of alternative, this website became a new medium to explore.

    I recognize that this long-form, blog-style writing is essentially out of fashion, and I don’t see too many others doing this type of writing, especially in the context of a songwriter sharing their work. I’m sort of doubtful about the interest and potential for engagement in this kind of pursuit, but I carry on with the consideration that for someone interested in this type of content, it can provide entertainment, insight, food for thought, inspiration and understanding that they wouldn’t find otherwise — if I had just made a post on Instagram with a Spotify link in my bio. I hope that people find inspiration in what I’m doing here. Some songwriting friends have expressed their own interest in pursuing similar writing to reflect on their songs, and I hope that others do pursue alternative approaches to sharing their work and thoughts to meaningful ends.

    So far I’ve been doing this in stolen moments, when I have the focus and time — this archive obviously isn’t my main project. I stay quite busy with lots of other activities; I have a very active life, I’m involved with my family and my local music scene, I’m regularly traveling and taking on money gigs, and so my personal creative projects will often take a backseat. Yet in the nine months since I published my first entry, this entry marks the 30th published entry, which feels like an impossible accomplishment to me, and still only covers a fraction of the entries I’ve conceived and wish to write.

    I’m interested in sharing the process along the way, because it always surprises me when I look back and I see what my vision was versus how things actually turned out. I very quickly lose track of where an idea began, since it is constantly changing and I’m inside of it the whole time, and it’s only in looking at reflections of notes from the past that I can get the perspective of what I was thinking previously. I’m always interested to see what stuck and how it transformed, what was dropped and forgotten, and what unfolded that I wasn’t anticipating.

    That last piece has become a major tenet of existence, of my life and approach to living — that the greatest things come as discoveries that I was not looking for and thinking about. They lie in the unknown, beyond the edges of my imagination.

    I began pulling on a thread of a website that would randomly provide an article from my musical and creative world. Instead what I’ve found is a new medium to explore and express. I’m not sure where or how far it will go, but I have some goals and visions. I want to keep writing entries, keep sharing songs and stories. I want to find a way to make the website more fluid, make the entries and pages more interconnected and easier to navigate. I want to implement an audio player, and video player. A photo gallery and a soft version of the random entry generator – exploring more tactile/interesting ways to explore the content of the website. These are just a few ideas and intentions I have moving forward. Thanks for being here, dear reader of these words. Enjoy

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  • Updates: Redwoods, Studio, Cornfield Blues

    It’s been a couple months since I’ve published any new entries on the site. I’ve got a few big entries in the works that I’ve yet to sit down and finish. For now, some updates from the last few months.

    Over the last months I’ve been spending a lot of time with family and dividing my weeks between my home on the Oregon coast and the new home of my dad and grandmother at the foot of the redwoods just outside of Crescent City, California. I was still a teenager the very first time I traveled up to see the redwoods. Walking in the redwoods and hiking coastal trails in Humboldt County deeply expanded my awareness of the diversity and vastness of nature and life on earth. Over the years I began to take regular trips up north and held a dream of living amongst the great coastal redwoods. My first realization of that dream was in my 20s when I settled on the Oregon coast, where I live just over an hour from the most northern coastal redwood growth outside of Brookings, Oregon. But now, in spending time with family, I also spend time in the redwoods two or three days a week on average – the dream of my late teenage years feels more real than ever before.

    It’s been about a year of taking regular trips to Crescent City, exploring the town and neighborhoods in a quest to find a suitable living situation for my family moving up from down south. But along with the time in the city, I’ve been exploring the beaches and trails along the coast, discovering nooks and trails through the redwoods along the Smith River. Throughout the fall, winter and spring I visited the Smith River countless times, and just last weekend, as we turned our cheek toward summer, I finally enjoyed back-to-back days of swimming the Smith.

    As I mentioned, my visits to Crescent City have been more about spending quality time with my family and exploring and discovering more of what the surroundings have to offer. I haven’t been so productive when it comes to my creative projects. I might do some editing or mixing, and I’ve been practicing and playing quite a bit down there, including on visits to the Smith, but overall I’ve been saving my music projects for home.

    At home, I’ve been working every day in my new home studio space. This has been a project in the works for nearly two years, since an existing structure on our property became unlivable due to serious storm damage. We spent close to a year just working on construction projects, and it would’ve been just over a year ago that the goal to dedicate space to recording first occurred to me. By the time the autumn rains began I had moved the majority of our equipment into the space, where there were still active projects of drywall, painting and attic/roof work to be done. I would spend several months shuffling gear around to accommodate projects, keeping a stripped-down recording space available throughout — the majority of all the demos I’ve recorded since fall 2025 were done in this space.

    Yet it wasn’t until about three months ago that I had finally removed all construction materials from the space entirely and had it set up for a live band rehearsal. Even then, it would still be a few weeks until the space was ready for live recording, as I was still putting up sound panels and generally unpacking and organizing gear throughout. There were so many tedious little projects along the way, and I’m still not on the other side of them. In the span of a week I must’ve spent over 20 hours organizing cables — wrapping them, adding velcro cable ties or twist ties, sorting them in piles and then crates, boxes and bags, and finding places for them. I still have a small box with miscellaneous cables that didn’t fall into simple categorization. With all that said, the space is now pretty well set up for recording and rehearsing, and we’ve got a few active projects happening within it. I will get to those across my next couple entries.

    My focus for a couple of weeks was a room where I’m setting up an analog work desk — a space for digitizing VHS tapes, playing, recording and reproducing cassette tapes and CDs, and playing back a variety of physical media. I’ve got a couple of boxes of home movies that I’ve been caring for for many years and only now have the space I could dedicate to setting up the equipment for digitizing them. That space is mostly together, but I’ve still got to figure out some solutions for shelving, storage and organization. What was previously a kitchen in this space is now the main working space, with a computer desk, studio monitors, access to our main recording console and so on. This space connects to the large area where we have a drum kit set up, guitar and bass amps, and a vocal booth in the corner of the room.

    Next door to the analog room is the space that is still the most in shambles, which I intend to use as a dedicated video space — shooting against a green screen or other backdrops.

    While I was still moving around and organizing boxes of records, cassettes and CDs — and trying to figure out some hi-fi humming issues in the setup, opening up a massive can of worms — I received a call from a local musician, Steve Montana. He was looking for some assistance in capturing a video performance of one of his original songs at the request of some documentary filmmakers. He specifically asked if I could do green screen, and I let him know he was in luck, as I’d been setting up a space for doing just that. Although the room was still being used as a transitory space for gear that needed to be sorted out, the one thing that was set up in the space was two walls covered in green fabric. I asked him to give me a week or so to tidy up, and when I did, he came over one afternoon to record Cornfield Blues.

    The song was written by him back in the 70s when he was a student at Maharishi International University in Fairfield, Iowa. It’s a humorous folk song that talks about the school, moving to Iowa, and — among other things — corn. From what I understand, it was an essentially forgotten part of his original catalogue until he was contacted recently by a documentary filmmaker who had just completed a film about the school.

    The documentary is called When Maharishi Came to Town and it covers the period in the 70s when Maharishi International University came to Fairfield, Iowa – including the time the Beach Boys came to record their M.I.U. Album at the school. The filmmaker, Dick DeAngelis, spent months trying to track down Steve before they connected and the filmmaker requested a video of Steve performing the song. That’s where I came in.

    In the aforementioned unfinished video room I set up lights, two cameras, two microphones, and one DI for the guitar. We probably spent close to an hour dialing in the lighting and camera placement and the audio, and then he did three takes. The last take was the one submitted to the filmmaker. For the green screen background, Steve requested a video of the Oregon coast if possible, and after looking at our options, we found a short video on Pexels that he was happy to use as a simple repeating loop. Within just a couple hours the video was ready, and that was that.

    This was a special event because it was the first project I worked on for somebody else in the new studio space. This is something I really want to do more of — making videos and recording for others, other friends and musicians in our coastal community.

    You can watch the full video, with the filmmaker describing the background for this song, and Steve’s performance at the end. Note: I tried everything to embed the video on the website but facebook is non cooperative. Link here: https://www.facebook.com/reel/856519317517536

  • The Challenge: July 2017 Pt. 3 – Songs 14-26


    Continuing from Pt. 1 (& the unfinished Pt. 2) – this entry contains all the songs and stories behind the songs I wrote and recorded during the second half of the 30 day song a day challenge in July 2017.

    No Body

    No Body, like many songs, came from a dream. There was one specific dream during that month of July where I was less interested in the events of the dream and more in the position from which I experienced it. Generally speaking I dream with a body that feels much like my familiar human body in waking life – I’m still human when I’m dreaming. But what use do I have for the body in a dream?

    A friend once told me that the coolest dream he ever had began with him in the sky flying, and when he looked from side to side he recognized that he had wings and that there were birds all around him. He was in the body of a bird, flying with the flock, with the awareness of a human being. I’m so envious of that dream. Occasionally I’ll have dreams where I am just an observer – not even an active participant, just watching events play out, like watching a movie. I always enjoy and find myself fascinated by those dreams.

    In the dream that inspired this song I was just an observer, but as I write in the song – still I could feel, and I felt everything I was observing. When I woke I was reminded that I do have a body. I am a body. And in those days I was dealing with some chronic pain, particularly in my ankle and my hip – tracing back to a skateboarding injury from several years before. I’d had some medical attention and physical therapy and the condition had improved, but I still live with some chronic and recurring pain and soreness.

    So I wrote two movements into the short song – one from inside the dream, an escape and vacation from the body, a place where I could still be conscious but free from the difficulties associated with having one – and then I wake up, feel the heaviness, feel the pain, and recognize that although my body is not doing very well, I still have the will to go on.

    “No Body”

    Dreamt that I had
    Had no body
    Still I could feel
    And I felt I didn't need it

    I had no head
    I kept thinkin
    I had no eyes but I did see
    The whole scene

    I woke up
    Felt my body falling apart
    Felt my wrists aching down to the bone
    I've got the will to go on
    I find my bod falling apart
    My leg aching from hip to toe
    I've got the will to go on
    I'll push at all costs

    Tinder Babies

    After years of performing with The Planet Of this has become essentially my most well-known and most requested song. It has to be one of my most ridiculous songs, written from one simple premise -a question I had been asking for years before writing this in 2017: how many Tinder babies are there in the world? By Tinder babies I mean babies born from parents who met on Tinder.

    I first learned about Tinder in Bethlehem, Palestine of all places. I was staying at the site of an eco farming project where I met a new friend from Brazil who was volunteering with the farm. I remember we went out for dinner in a small group and as we waited for food he took out his phone and told us he had been collecting pictures from Tinder of women whose profiles had machine guns in them. In Israel it is a requirement to join the military and for those doing their mandatory service it is a requirement to look after your assigned weapon at all times. What this leads to in day-to-day life is seeing groups of young people in and out of uniform gathering at cafés, restaurants, walking down streets, waiting for buses – with their assigned weapons on them at all times. As my new friend had discovered, it led to young women on their dating profiles posing with their weapons. Think the Israeli equivalent to dudes with big fish. He must’ve had close to 20 screenshots of women in their late teens and 20s taking selfies in uniform with their weapons. This was the first time I ever heard about Tinder. We had some good laughs about how casual the automatic weapon had become – like an accessory in otherwise cute and attractive photos. This would’ve been back in early 2014.

    By 2017 when I actually wrote this song, the question of how many Tinder babies there were had become less funny and absurd, and more of a basic reality. More and more people were meeting their partners through dating apps. I knew many people having regular hookups with people from Tinder and heard a few stories about people sticking together – and/or getting knocked up. It seemed like the main means of meeting people for a time. I began to imagine a future where kids would talk about how their parents met, and it would become the exception for a kid to say that their parents met organically or “IRL”.

    One thing that greatly inspired writing the song when I did was one of my roommates at the studio – a musician who kept his lockout where he practiced and lived full-time. I would regularly see him on his way in or out with a new lady by his side, sometimes two or three different women in a week. At some point I asked him what the deal was and he said Tinder. For sociological reasons I asked him how it worked. He explained it simply: when he would match with somebody he’d ask them if they were down to meet up. If they wanted to meet up earlier in the day it meant they wanted to get to know him first. But if they were down to meet up at night it essentially meant they were open to a hookup – He said “Most times when you meet you can just start macking on them” His words on the mechanics of Tinder hookups inspired the middle section of the song. Essentially direct quotes.

    The song begins with a mom and dad-to-be swiping right on each other and meeting up to dance all night – then asks the question: how many Tinder babes are there in the world? The bridge explains the rules as spoken by my Tinder-expert friend. Then the song takes a turn – my sonic vision in the section where I repeat “swipe swipe swipe” and the ‘babies’ begin to cry was that as people swipe, babies are born. The more we swipe the more babies are born. Ending with the repeated calls of the babies, children, and adults of the future who are all Tinder babies. “I’m a tinder baby”

    Again – this is my most well known and requested song. What does that say about me as an “artist”?

    “Tinder Babies”

    Lady swiped left
    Homie swiped right
    How will you swipe
    When you get the chance

    Mama swiped right
    Daddy swiped right
    They met up
    And they danced all night

    How many tinder babes in the world today
    How many tinder babes in the world today
    How many tinder babes in the world today
    How many tinder babes in the world

    If you're gonna meet a babe
    And y'all set the clock late
    You know what they want (they want it)
    You don't gotta ask (they want it)
    If they set it to the afternoon
    First they wanna get to know ya
    But most times when you meet em
    You can get straight get straight to just
    Macking on that tinder babe

    Tinder babes
    Tinder babies
    Swipe swipe swipe
    Swipe swipe swipe

    How many tinder babies in the world today
    How many tinder babies in the world today
    How many tinder babies in the world today
    How many tinder babies in the world

    I'm a tinder baby (x many)

    The Challenge

    Another short song, clocking in at 1:22. At this point we were getting into the later part of the challenge and I had time to understand just how much it had come to consume my time and energy. It truly became my main focus – the last thing I would think about before I fell asleep and the first thing I thought about in the morning. Whatever song I was working on at any given time was at the forefront of my thoughts. If I wasn’t playing or writing actively then I was listening – listening to a voice memo, listening to an early demo on repeat until more ideas came. It definitely began to feel unsustainable. Attempting to do this for a few weeks is one thing, but I could not live my life this way. Everything in moderation, including songwriting. Before I had any music I wrote out most of the lines. It’s a song written about the thing it was written for.


    “The Challenge”


    The challenge
    Is my day job
    Is my tether
    The challenge
    Is my lover
    Is my muse
    The challenge
    What tucks me in at night
    And springs me out of bed in the morning
    The challenge
    It consumes me

    Elemental

    An example of grabbing an interesting thread and pulling on it even if it doesn’t reach a particularly satisfying conclusion. The song is in five and has an interesting groove – I enjoy the odd time riffing – but I never felt too attached to it. I always felt I would return and get it more fleshed out, particularly the last section, but I never got there and I’m not sure I ever will.

    What these challenges do is muster a different kind of focus – one that allows me to take one idea and go far with it, often to surprising places. Elemental didn’t quite get there. It stands as an unfinished idea, and that’s fine. Not every song needs to be something.

    “Elemental”

    
    
    
    
    

    Where The People At?

    Across this entry I talk about how consumed I was with the challenge, but I was still getting out and about – socializing, playing a couple of gigs, remaining with some presence in the world. One day a friend invited me out for a hike in the Claremont Hills. We enjoyed a hike on a beautiful sunny summer day and at some point we stopped and looked out over the neighborhood below – almost entirely still, empty and motionless. Hundreds of homes on the most picture-perfect beautiful day, not a single person walking on the street, riding a bike or walking a dog, no kids playing outside. From what I could tell every door and window was shut, blinds drawn. The only sign of life was one mail truck driving slowly down the road. It felt surreal. The neighborhood looked like a model – a facade, staged.

    This was something that would often occur to me while living in the Inland Empire, between Upland and Ontario. Driving around on a beautiful morning or afternoon, seeing green parks with benches and playgrounds entirely empty. Most everywhere else I had ever spent time, good weather was treated like a luxury, a fleeting gift not to be squandered. People would gather in public spaces, sit and talk, play outside their homes. No park empty, no street still and lifeless.

    During the challenge I would take breaks and go walking around the streets of Ontario at any hour of the night or morning, listening to whatever song I was working on on repeat, writing or editing lines and taking notes to continue when I returned to the studio. I still do that. These days I’m more often in the forest or at the beach while I’m editing, listening and writing- but the process is the same. I remember working on this song specifically – I took a walk around Ontario and had that same feeling- where are all the people at?? Sure it was nighttime but knowing that tens of thousands of people were living all around, and seeing not one car, not one person on the street but me. It always felt a bit dystopian and apocalyptic.

    That night feeling made itself into the lyrics and the vibe of the song. I went out and recorded night sounds from the empty streets around Rad Pro – crickets, buzzing from power lines. You can hear it in the middle breakdown section and the ending. Where are all the people at?

    “Where Are All The People At?”

    Long wide streets
    Quietly
    Buzzing only with the sounds of electricity

    One car strolls down
    Down the boulevard
    Lonely post man
    Delivers to nobody

    Where are all the people at
    Where are all the people at
    Where are all the people at
    Where are all the people at

    Where is everybody
    There isn't a soul outside

    Cars all parked
    In their right spaces
    Houses painted many shades
    With windows shut and doors locked up

    Sky is mighty clear today
    A calm breeze sweeps through the valley
    Making trees dance in their plots
    And their leaves blow through empty parks and playgrounds

    From our perch
    On sunburnt slopes
    We view the suburb
    Countless homes
    Sitting calmly
    A silent neighborhood
    We must wonder
    Where are all the people at

    Clip Show

    Nostalgia is a hell of a drug. I can be very nostalgic and spend plenty of time thinking about the past. I definitely spend much more time thinking about the past than the future.

    This song was written almost in a similar vein to Been Missing except in this one instead of getting together with a friend to reminisce and get caught up – we’re strictly getting together to indulge in our shared past. I think this was written in response to a feeling that would come when I got together with old friends from the distant past. At times I would get the feeling that the person seeing me was expecting me to be the person they knew then – not really interested in getting caught up with the last years, wanting to receive me as they’ve always known me and play out this clip show. Telling old stories, speaking about people we knew in common, as if to resurrect ourselves and feel that our past meant something.

    The song was written in this dark, dreary tone to express the dull monotony I feel when I find myself in this type of dynamic. I don’t believe we should be defined by our past. I’m much more interested in what’s happening now. I am not who I was. When all we can connect about is the past it’s a sign that our connection is essentially lost – or at least that there is an unwillingness to connect in the present, as we are today. This song is the anthem for those who choose to live in a state of suspended past.

    “Clip Show”

    Let's get together and tell old stories
    Shut our eyes and slip away with portraits from our history
    We'll narrate the pictures as they play out on our eyelids
    Open up and let a comfy ache seep in

    Let's get together let's get reminiscent
    Picking out the details and dusting off our memories
    With a thousand words each we can go hog wild
    We could live fully in the glory of the past

    We could be a clip show
    We could be a picture book
    We could be the keepers of the story of the past

    We could be a clip show
    We could be a picture book
    We could be the storytellers

    Don’t Talk To Me About Pizza

    This is a total joke song. Eventually it became a staple in the live sets with The Planet Of. I would often introduce it as the anthem of an angry straight edge vegan, which is essentially what it is – in the song I’m just pissed off about people talking about and posting about beer and burgers and pizza and all the things that everyone seems to love except me, the non-meat-and-cheese-eating, non-beer-drinking grump.

    I love the riffs in this song. Maybe someday I would rewrite this with some actual lyrics that have more sense or purpose, but as it stands the silly ‘straightedgevegan’ anthem remains.

    For the music I was inspired by a sort of psychedelic surf punk band that I saw at some late-night speakeasy a few months before the challenge. I decided to do a parody performance of angry punk vocals which I didn’t put a whole lot of effort into – you’ll hear it on the recording.

    In general I hang onto the basic assumption that music does not have to be serious. I would even go so far as to say that music is not serious, and further than that, neither is life itself for that matter. I don’t believe that a joke song has less value or validity than something written earnestly. I find it’s a healthy practice to tap into different parts of my psyche and emotions and write from different places. Especially in doing such an undertaking as writing and recording a song every day, there isn’t a lot of room for doubt. Find a thread that feels interesting and follow it to the end, even if it’s absurd and ridiculous. It’s relieving to write from a place of fun, experimentation and humor without any pressure to create something serious.

    Don’t Talk To Me About Pizza


    Don't talk to me about pizza
    Don't talk to me about cheese
    Don't talk to me about pepperonies
    Don't talk to me

    Don't talk to me about burgers
    Don't talk to me about ground meat
    Don't talk to me about bacon
    Don't talk to me

    Don't talk to me about donuts
    Don't talk to me about dough
    Don't talk to me about soda
    I don't wanna know

    You are what you eat
    Please try to keep it down
    You stuff it in your face
    Turn your diet into sounds
    Turn your pizza into pictures
    And your pictures into posts
    I don't want to see
    What you're stuffing in your throat

    Don't talk to me about liquor
    Don't talk to me about beer
    Don't talk to me about pizza
    I don't wanna hear

    Face Stealer

    This one is a bit of a departure. It stands with only a couple other songs in my catalog as being inspired not by events of my life or observations, not by dreams or my internal world, but from a character – in this case a character from a show.

    I don’t spend a lot of time sitting down and watching TV but I’m often working through a show – maybe just a few minutes at a time when I stop to eat or at the very end of the night before I fall asleep. During the time of the songwriting challenge I was watching Avatar: The Last Airbender for the first time. For any Avatar fans – I watched Legend of Korra first, which apparently is sacrilege. A friend was watching it, I got into it, finished it, and immediately started The Last Airbender right around the start of the challenge.

    This song is written about, Koh the face stealer, a spirit that does exactly what the name suggests – steals faces.

    The spirit’s name is Koh, but he is very dangerous. They call him the Face Stealer. When you speak with him, you must be very careful to show no emotion at all. Not the slightest expression, or he will steal your face.

    Something about this character and the idea behind its powers really interested and terrified me. I was asking myself how I could manage being in a situation like that – facing a powerful and dangerous entity without being able to show any kind of emotion, no fear, no worry, no shock or surprise. I can be stoic but as a matter of life and death I can’t mask my emotion that well.

    I watched this episode during the challenge and it inspired me to write this song.

    “Face Stealer”

    Beware
    The face stealer
    Show no worry
    Show no fear
    Show no worry
    Show no fear

    Beware
    The face stealer
    Show sadness
    Show no tears
    Show no anger
    Show no fear

    Show no joy
    Show no surprise
    Show no joy
    Show no surprise
    Beware
    The face stealer

    Forty Thousand Spirits

    I grew up in Los Angeles County but never lived in Los Angeles proper. Over my years in Southern California I was mostly between Los Angeles and the Inland Empire, primarily around the San Gabriel Valley.

    I remember in my early travels meeting people who didn’t know too much about the realities of life in the United States. One woman I met at a pub in London said “you’re from LA so your parents must be pretty wealthy then?” I was surprised – my mom is a lifelong waitress, my dad worked in a factory that produced baked goods. She said all she knew about LA was Hollywood and celebrities so she just assumed anyone who lived there must be rich. On the other hand, I’ve heard from multiple people who were shocked on their first visit to the US to arrive in Los Angeles and witness the extreme level of poverty on display. An Australian man told me he had been traveling in Asia just before arriving in the US and the level of homelessness reminded him of what he had seen in countries that would be referred to as “Third World.” He was not expecting that at all from one of the most powerful and wealthy countries on earth.

    Growing up there I guess it’s a thing you take for granted, but after traveling – especially in Europe – and returning, it became very clear. I noticed it more and more over the years, in places I hadn’t noticed it before. Not only on Skid Row or around the streets of downtown Los Angeles, where parks and public spaces are fenced up for “construction” in areas with high volumes of people living outside, and high-rise buildings keep security employed to push away unsavory characters from their doors and steps. The cities I spent the most time in – Pasadena, Arcadia, Temple City, Glendora, Azusa, Ontario, Upland – always had some homeless population, but as the years went on, I see more and more every time I visit. People lined up on freeway off-ramps, asking for money and assistance. Tents along the freeways. Encampments anywhere people can be left alone.

    I talked with social workers who worked in LA on programs in education and public health and heard firsthand accounts where when homelessness was brought up the topic was quickly dismissed – as if it were too far gone, broken beyond repair, the funding isn’t there, no viable short or long-term solutions to the reality that tens of thousands of people live without permanent shelter. I spent time on the street, had conversations and interactions with unhoused people, shared food, drink and smoke with them. I heard stories of addiction, prostitution, abuse at the hands of police, other unhoused people, and civilians. I heard stories of tragic life circumstances that led people to survive outside.

    I’ll admit that I’ve been quite sheltered over the last decade. I live in a small town with a low population – even then there are people living outside, but the entire population in my area is still a fraction of the homeless population in Los Angeles.

    During the challenge I was inspired to write about all of this, to put some of my feelings about everything I had seen into a song. I was looking at articles to get a number of how many people were living on the streets in LA and one article estimated around 40,000. A quick search right now still shows around 40,000+ in the city of Los Angeles, up to 70,000+ across LA County.

    There were people I saw during that time who directly inspired scenes and images within the song – the sun-soaked man with the hat, squinting as he picked through a large mound of trash, seen while exiting the highway around the city. A woman with a sign that said exactly what I wrote into the song: anything helps, even a smile. I smiled at her. When I was doing well – even when I wasn’t – I would often stop and offer food, change or whatever I had.

    I don’t have a nest egg or 401k, I don’t have money in savings. What I do have is family, friends and community – and with that there is some buffer. If I lost my place to live I know people would take me in. I’m in good health. I can work many different jobs. I’m not addicted to drugs. My mental health is mostly sound. I don’t view any of these things as great achievements fought for and earned – they are circumstantial, brought on by the good graces of chance. And good luck always runs out. Time and time again I’ve been disturbed by how little acknowledgment or empathy some people will extend to those living with less. I’ve heard people speak so badly about the homeless population – with genuine disdain, maybe even hatred. “If they didn’t want to be homeless they should’ve made better choices.” “It’s not too late for them to get a job and clean up their act.” “If they had only worked as hard as the rest of us.” We speak like this and worship politicians and celebrities as models of success, ideal versions of ourselves, of what our lives could be – but I see that we are so much closer to the woman on the side of the highway with a sign in her hands than to the people we put on pedestals. My theory is that there is a subconscious understanding of this – that to see so many people in such desperate situations leads to a sense of insecurity and creates a scarcity mentality and predatory nature in people. We cling to what we have, our precious resources. But as I wrote into this song – they’re just a bill away.

    During the challenge, with all these thoughts and feelings in mind, I wrote Forty Thousand Spirits. Nearly ten years later, no closer to any solution or widespread initiative to prevent and end homelessness – here it is, still as relevant as the day I wrote it.

    “Forty Thousand Spirits”

    A skinny man sits utop a pile of trash
    His eyes won't open all the way
    The suns got him squint-in he's wearing his hat
    As cars try to pass without making contact

    King of the mountain
    Mountain of trash
    Being burned by the sun

    In their cars, the drivers believe
    They've got places to go
    They've got places to go people to be and so little time
    People to be so little time and so little money
    While they try to merge they avoid eye contact cause they can't afford it

    How often we witness our brothers living out on the street
    Sleeping in boxes and tents all around the city
    In parks and tunnels off highways and roads
    At least the sun shines year round
    You spend winter sleeping on the ground

    Forty thousand spirits
    Left out on the streets tonight
    Those who stay inside fear it
    Life without their sweet delights

    Security
    Precious resources
    A bill away

    On the local off ramp
    A woman stands with a sign in her hands
    It says God bless anything helps
    Even a smile
    If these parts were happy
    She'd be in business
    Most folks look away
    One day I stopped
    I gave her some fruit
    She said let me tell you a story

    There is a saltine that broke the soup
    It's got salt that feeds who eats
    Yet forgets and forsakes the hungry
    It's got a hand that stirs the slop
    Some spills out over the top
    And goes beyond where we can not reach

    We can swim to the edge to hold ourselves up
    Give rest to our legs to gather our strength and take a breath
    To sail back to the spoon

    There's a spoon that picks us up
    Blows on us to cool us off
    It gives us kisses and some day will eat us whole
    Hmm is that so
    Yes and sir do you have a cigarette

    Forty thousand spirits
    Sleep out on the streets tonight
    Those who stay inside fear it
    Life without their sweet delights

    Security
    Precious resources
    A bill away
    Can't pay
    No water for you
    Can't pay
    No shelter for you
    Can't pay
    No power for you
    Can't pay
    You'll be out on your own

    Hicks

    I have yet to write about this in the archive, but I am a massive fan of comedy. As an audience member I’ve likely attended more live comedy shows than concerts in my life. My older brother has performed in improv for decades, and one of the great highlights of my generally miserable teenage years was tagging along to improv and sketch comedy shows around Los Angeles – most notably at the Groundlings Theater and UCB, the Upright Citizens Brigade where I would go to laugh my ass off weekly.

    This song is inspired by the stand up comedian Bill Hicks. I wouldn’t put him at the top of my favorite comedians these days – I find some of his material hasn’t aged very well and I think a lot of it would illicit more clapter than laughter. But I find him to be an inspiring, if not tragic, figure. He was younger than I am now when he died, and he died just before a massive explosion of opportunities and recognition that came for comedians in the 90s. He didn’t really live to get his flowers. In his short life he held strong positions and took a stand against what he viewed as inauthentic and corrupt in our culture – entertainment, commercialism, politics, the social and political topics of the time. Coming from a conservative Southern background he traveled far down his own path pursuing stand-up, but also writing and recording songs, writing poetry. I found his material very cathartic at a time where I was very angry with the world but hadn’t yet escaped into the freedom of adulthood. Some bits still hold up. He seemed to lean harder into bitterness as the years went on, but I love some of the material he put out at the end of his life, especially when he pulled back the angry facade and spoke about truth and goodness in this world.

    During the 2017 song-a-day challenge I wrote a song inspired by my favorite comedians, ultimately dedicated to Bill Hicks. I’m sad to see the state of comedy today where the concept of the truth-telling comedian has been co-opted by corporate-sponsored right-wing comics such as Joe Rogan, who actually seem to be influencing social and political thought in favor of those in power. I imagine Bill Hicks would have had extreme contempt for that. I have respect and admiration for anyone willing to go onto a stage and try to make people laugh – and to do it in a way that challenges us, makes us look at things a little differently, and invites us to laugh at the absurdity of our human lives.

    “Hicks”

    Truth can be a pain
    In our distorted world
    In the quest for truthfulness
    Some minds go beyond

    With a reach that has no bounds
    With a reach that has no bounds
    Some minds go beyond

    They learn the fact from fiction
    They bare and fuse the pain
    With sharp communication
    They turn our misery to comedy

    They become ambassadors
    Champions of honesty
    They become ambassadors
    Make us laugh our asses off (Ha ha ha)

    Dear Bill
    We miss you
    In this crowded world
    So full of bull
    You cut straight through
    Speaking truth
    Without fear
    Without regret
    We thank you
    Dear Bill

    Unplugged (Unfinished – finished July 2018)

    This is a song I didn’t feel settled with at the time of the 2017 challenge. I submitted a demo that was underdeveloped and felt unfinished to me. I no longer have that demo — I brought it back during the July 2018 challenge and finished it then. That’s the only version that exists now. (Link to July 2018 entry will go here later)


    Expressing Frustration At Soundcloud

    I had always thought of this as a throwaway and considered not including it in the article at all. But I found the audio file, listened through it, transcribed the lyrics and actually like it more than I remembered. It works as a time capsule – reminding me just how bad the SoundCloud app used to be.

    In 2017 I couldn’t check messages, comments or lyrics on the iOS app and would need to log into the browser version on a computer to access any of it – which was very frustrating, especially when I was using it daily and there was a big social component to the song-a-day group. People were constantly reacting and leaving comments on each other’s SoundCloud submissions. Also at that time I was reading articles talking about how SoundCloud was potentially going out of business, and that Chance the Rapper was in talks to purchase it and revive it. My commentary on the track includes nods to that, as well as a handful of user requests for an app update and the scripted responses from SoundCloud agents saying they were working on the updates – despite it having been years with no update.

    The robot voice you hear in the middle of the song was generated from copying and pasting a typical SoundCloud spam message of the time.

    SoundCloud these days is not perfect. It never really returned to its glory days. The ads are frustrating – I stopped using it for a couple of years and recently began uploading my demos there again. There’s a convenience I’m willing to pay for, but I find that for others sitting through ads to listen to my music is very off-putting. I’ll probably move away from it again once I can figure out another means. In any case, I’m shocked that after all these years they actually updated the app and I can do lyrics and comments now – although I don’t think I can check messages, but that’s okay because most of the messages I receive are spam anyway. That hasn’t changed.

    I don’t think it’s one of the better songs from this challenge or my catalog in general, but it serves as a time capsule for something I had entirely forgotten. For that, I appreciate it.

    “Expressing Frustration At Soundcloud”

    I stay up all night
    Writing tunes singing to a cheap mic
    I am a lonely engineer
    Been hoarding my tunes for many years
    Now I’ve broken my silent spell
    And sent some tunes to float in the soundcloud
    SoundCloud in the soundcloud

    SoundCloud app for ios
    Is a pile of shit/ish
    Without steam or a fly on it
    Just a plain old shit

    Can’t comment can’t leave any messages
    Can’t even read these words
    On the SoundCloud
    (It was meant to be updated three years ago)

    Most my likes are spam likes
    But i keep posting songs
    Is there anybody with a body listening
    Why should i go on

    SoundCloud app for ios
    Is a pile of shit/ish
    Without steam or a fly on it
    Just a plain old shit

    Destination Fever

    The last song I completed for the challenge. After nearly a month of obsessive writing and recording, I went out with one more instrumental – very guitar-heavy, definitely inspired by the kind of instrumental guitar music I became obsessed with in my mid to late teens. Namely Paul Gilbert.

    There’s a story behind the guitar I used to record it. I bought it cheap off OfferUp – maybe $150 – and it was one of the only guitars I’ve ever had with a tremolo on it. Some kind of knockoff Bigsby. For anyone who doesn’t know, the tremolo on a guitar is a piece of hardware that lets you make the notes go WEEOOHWEEOOHWEE and WAHWAHWAHWAHWAHWAH. Great fun.

    I started playing with the tremolo and the song just started pouring out one riff at a time. Sadly, not long after getting the guitar I had the bright idea to upgrade the neck – bought a nice Fender neck off OfferUp – which led to me taking the guitar apart less than two weeks after I got it, dropping it off at a friend’s house to set up, and then discovering the neck didn’t fit the body. By that point I was already off to Oregon. The original neck got lost. I wouldn’t see the guitar again for almost ten years. Even now I have the body and that neck but it’s never gone back together because the original is lost and I haven’t found a proper replacement.

    That guitar was used for exactly one song and one recording session. Then I took it apart and ruined it.

    Destination Fever was the final song I completed for that challenge. And just days later I would begin one of the greatest voyages of my life – the one that led me to Port Orford, and eventually to this.

    “Destination Fever”

    
    
  • The Challenge: July 2017 Pt. 2 – Songs 1-13


    Continuing from Pt. 1 – this entry contains the songs and stories behind the songs I wrote and recorded during the first half of the 30 day song-a-day challenge in July 2017.


    Ten To One

    This is a historic song for me — the very first song of the very first song challenge I ever attempted. One thing I discovered over the course of that first month was that in order to keep up with the demands of the task at hand, I would need to take the following approach: every day start something, and every day finish something. With that said, I had actually started working on the song I would submit for day two — Following — the day before the challenge began. But I decided that to start off right I should hold myself to writing and submitting something completely brand new on the very first day. So essentially both Following and Ten To One were written and completed within a 24-hour window, but I would wait until after I woke up on July 1 to begin work on Ten To One.

    The title refers to the period in which I slept that day — going to sleep at 10 AM and waking up at 1 PM. I can’t remember what if any reason I had to stay up until the day was already underway, but truthfully it’s not out of the ordinary for me. I believe I was up working on Following, and the excitement of this new songwriting venture surely had something to do with it.

    This song and a few others are tied in my memory to the house in Arcadia, California that my mom rented for about a year after leaving our house on Acaso Drive. It was there that I stayed up all night, slept just a few hours, and woke up to write this song. It’s a short and simple song — I employed some jazzier 2-5-1 type progressions that I wouldn’t typically reach for, especially these days. There’s really not much to it. I think I wrote and arranged it within just a couple of hours, went into the garage, set up a couple of microphones, and ran through it until I got a take I was happy with. Sleep deprived and excited for the month to come. This recording would be the very last time I ever played this song — really just a song for the moment, for the challenge, something I wouldn’t have written otherwise. And with that, we were off.

    “Ten To One”

    One Two
    Three hours of sleep
    How I rest my eyes
    Three hours of sleep gone by

    Stayed up for the sun
    Went to sleep alone
    Woke up spooning this new tune

    Thought I'd catch up on Z's
    I woke up to Saturday
    What happened to the week?

    One Two
    Three hours of sleep
    How I rest my eyes
    Three hours of sleep gone by
    (And the day waits)

    Following

    Following would have been the first song I actually began writing going into the challenge, but I bumped it with the decision to start something new on the day itself. With Ten To One out of the way and Following mostly written, I had a chance to dedicate the day more to the guitar arrangement and recording. I have a faint memory of recording this not in the garage but in the spare bedroom — I believe it may have been my grandma’s bedroom. I’m not sure where she would have been at the time, most likely visiting with some uncle or my aunt, but I seem to remember recording the vocals in the middle of the night, almost at a whisper, sitting on her bed along with the guitars.

    If you know me or if you’ve read other entries on this site, you may know that I don’t have warm feelings about social media and the influence it has across the world. From my first exposure to Instagram and Facebook I felt that they were deeply rotten and threatening to our minds and behavior. I had become pretty fixated on the idea that our relationships and social skills were being tarnished — social life being reduced to symbols on a screen, the meanings of words like friend, follow, share and like being slowly reassigned away from their original meanings into abstract digital concepts. I would elaborate on this in Unplugged, which began during this challenge and was revisited during the 2018 song-a-day challenge. Whereas Unplugged focused on that reappropriation of language, Following was written from a more satirical place.

    What pushed the song was how often at the shows I was playing and attending there would be this obligatory moment where the band would face the crowd and say “follow us on Instagram.” I never felt any deep enthusiasm behind it — mostly desperation, and some embarrassment. It is a desperate situation that essentially the most viable path to connect with an audience runs through services designed to be as addictive as possible, to engross as many people as possible, to generate as much revenue as possible for grotesque companies. Not to mention around that time I remember at any social gathering, a party or after-show hangout, it seemed like people couldn’t wait for the moment where they go to say “do you have Instagram, can I follow you?” Passing their phones back and forth and calling it “connection.”

    The song is written as a parody — from the perspective of someone who has fully given themselves over to the platform, maintaining a curated false reality, following the trends, maximizing their engagement, telling themselves they don’t need to go outside because they can see the world through their phone. By the end the narrator asks with some desperation if you’ll follow them back.

    I’ve gone through cycles with this over the years — spending months or years at a time with no social media presence at all, deleting accounts entirely, which in some cases meant losing contact with certain people forever. A ghostly presence as only a lurker, not a poster, which is roughly where I’ve been lately. And at other times actually posting updates and sharing music, which truthfully has been positive in the periods I’ve taken that route — which I find all the more conflicting.

    Unlike Ten To One, this silly sarcastic song found life after the challenge as an irregular but frequent enough appearance in the sets of The Planet Of, where it took on a heavier and more rocking tone. I’ll include an alternate demo featuring my brother Ryan on bass and Scott McTaggart on drums. I’ve always imagined a music video for this one. It still lives in my head. Someday, perhaps.

    “Following”

    Following the leader
    Following the path
    Who carves @ my name
    I'll laugh when yer lookin'
    Like it's all a gas
    Who will pick me up
    When I'm cryin' when I'm lyin'

    I could see the world
    Don't even have to stand
    I could be a man
    I could take a pic I could
    poke it in my hand
    I could be a brand
    Would you buy, what I'm supplyin'

    I don't really know you
    Still I adore you
    I've looked into your wall one thousand times
    I may never see your eyes but I'll
    look at whatchu let me
    Baby I'm subscribed

    I'm following you
    Will you follow me
    I'm following you
    Are you following
    I'm following you
    Will you follow me
    I'm following you
    Are you following

    Will Hide

    I have such a vivid, dream-like memory of the day surrounding this song. Just the third song in and I already felt fully in the throes of songwriting obsession. I was back at Rad Pro, back in my little recording space in Ontario, and one of the key moments that sparked this song came when I was walking through downtown Ontario and a black SUV passed me with music blaring. Meanwhile I was in my head, trying to dig up an idea for the next song.

    I began to imagine a song that essentially haunts me — something that comes from outside and finds me anywhere I go. I meant for it to be the story of an earworm. I was imagining a melody I cannot stand, maybe just something playing from that car, now playing in the store, now playing in my mind wherever I go. An inescapable force.

    It felt like a natural meta exploration of what was already happening during this period of intense writing. When I’m working on something I will listen to it over and over and over — headphones on, walking laps around downtown Ontario, taking notes on anything I want to change or add, then going back in to keep pushing. These days I do the same thing on the road or at the beach or walking through the forest. That pattern never really left. In the story of Will Hide though, the separation is that usually when I’m working on something I’m excited about it — I want to develop it and see where it goes. But in the story of this song, the melody is something I’m trying to escape. Something I don’t like. A torturous earworm that follows me everywhere.

    The chorus is really the most direct commentary on what was happening during the challenge — another day, another song, another chance to do it all wrong. The rest of the song follows the listener trying to escape this melody before ending in a kind of resignation, an acceptance: I’ll be better off if I just learn to love it, and whether I love it or hate it doesn’t really matter. That resignation was a key realization that came to me during this challenge — that perfection is impossible, and the kind of thinking that tells you something isn’t good enough yet will take something exciting and turn it into nothing. Dust. Working through a song every day meant I couldn’t be too picky. I had to take something good enough and follow it to the end.

    Between working on new songs day to day I would also return to these ideas and develop them further — and in this case, having the demo done gave me the opportunity to collaborate. My brother-in-law Andy Egyud sent me a pass with many different bass ideas, I asked him to experiment, try melodic parts, try different things throughout the song — and what you hear is a composite, heavily edited from the original take he sent. I’ve always wanted to return to this one to record live drums, fresh vocals, and remix the track. I believe I did do a remix around 2022/2023 and that’s the version included here. It’s a strange song but I still enjoy it, and I’m particularly fond of the vocal harmonies — which was very new territory for me. Just a few days into the challenge and I was already stretching beyond anything I had written or recorded before.

    “Will Hide”

    Walked outside wasn't feeling very happy
    Wasn't happy happy at all
    I heard a tune playing in a car driving by me
    I didn't like it didn't like it at all
    That feeling that stain on the street
    I think I'd rather have stayed inside

    Another day another song
    Another chance to get along
    Another jam another lesson
    One more blind experimentation

    I kept walking I went to the store where
    On the ceiling I heard that same blasted ear worm
    Then I went to the park and I heard it on someone's phone
    It follows me everywhere I roam

    Everywhere I roam it follows me
    Everywhere I roam it follows
    Outside sounds so loud
    Can't turn em off
    Outside sounds so loud

    So I
    (will hide) In a basement
    (will hide) With my guitar
    (will hide) Behind the glass
    (will hide) From the mess
    (will hide) From my enemies
    (will hide) From my friends
    (will hide) From beginnings
    (will hide) From the end
    (will hide) from the tunes
    (will hide) in my head
    (will hide) in the night
    I will never go to bed
    (will hide) From my demons
    (will hide) Or I will try
    (will hide) From all the sounds my ears don't like

    When I come out of hiding I'm stuck to the street
    I'm stuck to the sounds inside and outside of me
    Hiding or not a song will play on
    Love it and hate it I must tolerate it
    If I learn to love it I'll feel a lot better
    If I love to share I'll get along anywhere
    If I learn to love it I'll feel a lot better
    Love it or hate it doesn't really matter

    Another day another song
    Another chance to do it all wrong
    Another jam another lesson
    One more blind experimentation
    Another day another night
    Another chance to get it right
    Another jam another session

    Bad Kitty

    Ft. Ryan Feliciano (Bass, shred guitar)

    Bad Kitty represented a major shift from the previous songs I had written for the challenge. I had spent the day and night pulling together Will Hide — a lo-fi, almost trip-hop inspired track — and before that I had kicked things off with Ten To One, which is basically a jazzy folk song. I wanted to push myself to write something very different. I decided I wanted something heavy, with scorching guitar solos, leaning into some of my earlier influences in heavy rock and metal.

    It was within those first few days that I was sharing my demos to SoundCloud and sending them to a few friends and close family outside the group. My older brother Richard made a request — after listening to the first couple of songs he asked if I could write a song about a terrible cat. He was referring to his cat Judy, whose Instagram handle was @judytheterrible. I’ll note that the account is still active — she just hasn’t posted in a while, as her admin team has been busy raising my niece for the last five years.

    I had this in mind already and almost instantaneously, when I resolved to write a hard rock and metal jam, the concept of Bad Kitty just clicked. I conceived the ending before anything else — it would all lead toward some over-the-top, absurd grand finale, a chorus of cats just singing meow meow meow meow like the demented metal cousin of the Meow Mix jingle.

    I wanted to lean into the 80s metal that influenced me as a teenager and I think that guided the tones and riffs that started to shape the song. It was honestly difficult to record a lot of the guitar parts — it demanded a type of playing I hadn’t done for years at that point, which in itself made it more challenging than composing the piece. The lyrics are simple and tell the story of a bad kitty, a cat that bites. Judy loved and still loves to bite. I think she’s bitten me almost every time I’ve seen her since she was a kitten.

    As I was putting the song together I realized the scope I wanted to take with it was beyond what I was fully capable of technically, so this was the first song in the challenge where I brought in my brother Ryan for collaboration. I had already recorded the overall form — the first guitar solo you hear was composed and performed in chunks by me, channeling my inner Yngwie Malmsteen — but by the time the lyrics hit “baaaad kittyyyy” and the ferocious harmonized guitars begin, that’s Ryan’s contribution, along with his soaring shredding guitar solo at the end.

    I’ve never been married to genre. I’m constantly moving between different influences and I love lots of music. Across the song challenges I’ve really enjoyed doing genre shifts, setting the intention to lean into something different for a day. If I didn’t have that openness I wouldn’t have managed to compose such a ridiculous rock anthem for my brother’s cat. And there would be no fun in that.

    Razor sharp claws
    Biting is her game
    But she's not playing
    There's terror in her name

    Terror is her business
    Business is good
    Business is damn good
    You better watch out

    If you've got a back
    Don't you ever think about turning around
    Beast out for the attack
    She is built to tear you down tear you down

    Kitty
    Kitty

    Bad kitty
    Bad kitty
    Terrible kitty
    Terrible terrible kitty
    She sings!

    Meow meow meow meow
    (ad infinitum)

    Young Love

    Young Love is a song about exactly that. During the challenge I was constantly fishing for ideas and this one started with just a few riffs I had arranged in a GarageBand project. Something about the quality and flavor of those riffs took me back to a sort of preteen state, reminding me of bands like Coheed and Cambria — never a favorite of mine, but one I listened to occasionally in my early teens. Once those teenage years were evoked I started digging into feelings around a high school relationship.

    I had a conversation with a friend recently who expressed how much he misses the feeling of being in love the way we experienced it in our youth. We talked about whether that intensity comes from naivety, lack of exposure, immaturity, or just pure hormones — but whatever it was, we both agreed that it felt so consuming, even just having a crush as a kid or teen. And how relationships as adults feel more measured, less all-consuming, more subtle.

    With that said, the phenomenon I’ve experienced is that as time goes on my understanding and capacity for love seems to grow. With every relationship, every experience, something expands. I had this idea that the relationship of my teenage years represented the maximum amount of love I was able to give and feel at the time — but as I went into more mature relationships and experienced greater depths of connection, so too did I experience greater depths of love, and that capacity kept growing. Yet when I think back to that young love I can still feel that part of me. It’s like that love is still there. It was the strongest I had known at that time, but in looking back it was just a cup in a well of love there is still to know.

    One more thing worth noting: the intro to the song is actually one of the earliest pieces of music I ever wrote, from my teenage years — a small instrumental that came out one day, which I notated in transcription software and managed to hang onto all these years. I wrote it at that time with my girlfriend in mind. So there’s a little piece of 16-year-old me at the top of this song.

    Young love
    Passed sure
    But never lost
    I remember how I filled my cup
    And overflowed with you
    Since then
    I tipped the cup
    I dove into a full on pool
    Filled with other souls with whom
    I've sunken into tenderness
    So deep now that I can swim
    In love so deep now that I swim
    I still remember the young love
    I still remember the young love
    Still remember how I filled my cup
    And overflowed with you
    And overflowed (still remember young love)
    Still remember the young love

    Insomniac Stupor Rag

    This was the first instrumental I wrote for the challenge and came from a desire to pivot again — I remember feeling a little burnt out, or at least struggling more than I had the previous days to come up with a lyrical concept I felt strongly about. In a song-a-day challenge the rules are pretty loose, as I covered in the background entry, and plenty of participants don’t submit lyrical pieces at all.

    As the title suggests I was essentially living as an insomniac at this point, sleeping very few hours, spending most of my days and nights developing and recording songs for the challenge. Even a song like Bad Kitty demanded an all-night session to piece together and record. I usually record through the night anyway — so that’s what inspired the title. Sleep deprived, I decided to write a simpler piece for guitar in a ragtime style.

    This kind of fingerpicking style represented a significant shift in my playing. It was later that I would really dive into it, getting turned onto the ragtime blues of artists like Blind Willie McTell. And probably the first piece in this style I ever learned was one of my favorite songs — These Days, written by Jackson Browne and recorded by Nico from the Velvet Underground. It was in my traveling years around 2013 to 2015 that I was really learning pieces like this, playing around with this bouncy picking that combines bass, chords and melodies all at once — it greatly changed my approach to playing guitar. I enjoyed putting this piece together as a way to connect with those influences.


    Sister

    I believe this is the first song from the challenge where I lifted some lyrics I had written previously. A few months before the challenge I had gotten into an argument with my sister, who was in her late teen years at the time. What I had hoped could be a constructive conversation quickly turned into a communication breakdown and came to an abrupt end with no resolution. I wrote a few words then but hadn’t really considered it as a song until this day.

    The song moves from those feelings around the miscommunication into something much warmer — ending with some kind words to clarify that I love her, that I think she’s brilliant and capable of doing anything she wants in this life. Both success and failure are guaranteed, but there is nothing to fear. When I played it to her she said she was put off at first but ultimately thought it was sweet. I couldn’t ask for much more than that.

    The song features Ryan on bass, who really nailed the poppy, punchy feel that tied it all together. It’s a musically strange song, and it featured what I think was the most ambitious vocal melody I had written up to that point. This ended up being a regular song toward the beginning of The Planet Of performances.

    Sister
    Can you step outside
    With me
    Absolutely
    You can
    But will you please

    Please listen for meaning
    Not implications sis
    Meanings are here now
    Implications will become
    Much later on
    I'm here with you now
    Where is your mind?

    You've run away from home with your implications
    You've run away and you left all of your potential
    You've run away from home with your implications
    You've run away and you left all your potential

    You are beautiful you are smart
    You can do anything
    Just as you please
    No soul to come of the earth
    Can stop you
    So long as you believe
    You are powerful
    You are smart
    And clever to do as you please

    You will run far with your intuition
    You hold the world in your hands with great potential
    You will run oh so far with your intuition
    You will take the world on with your boundless spirit

    You will succeed don't be afraid
    You will also fail please don't be afraid
    You will succeed don't be afraid
    You will also fail don't you be afraid

    The Witch & The Wizard

    This was the second instrumental I wrote for the challenge and another stylistic departure. Here I was leaning into the kind of guitar instrumental music I listened to a great deal during my teenage years. My playing is nowhere near the masters of this style, but a clear and direct influence here is the album Erotic Cakes by Guthrie Govan.

    Once I started piecing together the backing track I had a strong feeling that I wanted the song built entirely around a couple of solos, so I reached out to Ryan and asked him to write a solo over the form. We recorded our solos independently and I pieced them together with a short bridge in the middle, and an intro and outro to sandwich them. In my mind the Witch and the Wizard are real characters – I could see and hear them in this song.


    Sharks Not Sharks

    This song has very clear inspiration in real events. The day I wrote it was the day of a long event at a legendary DIY venue in downtown LA called The Smell. I was performing with the band Xinxin for an event being put on by my dear friend Karen Joyce, who publishes music under the name Take Kare. Take Kare – Bloom music video

    There was drama that unfolded over the course of the event that I wasn’t aware of until near the end of the evening. Essentially there was a conflict between Karen and a friend who had been co-organizing the event. As I understand it, the friend took serious issue with a piece Karen was performing — an avant-garde jazz performance in which improvised music was played while Karen read out the names of individuals who had been killed in instances of police brutality. I thought the piece was poignant and deeply compelling. But the co-organizer, who Karen had considered a close friend, accused Karen of using the names of these victims to seek attention, and told Karen that if the piece was performed, she would have nothing to do with the event.

    This was sprung on Karen the day of a major event they had planned together for some time. After going back and forth, Karen made the decision to perform the piece. The co-organizer performed her own set early in the evening and left with some attitude, leaving Karen to handle everything the two of them were meant to do together. The event went well. The performances went well. But once I heard what had happened it seemed clear to me that this was less a moral objection and more something ego-driven — some kind of competitive instinct, a drive to sabotage. I got back to the studio that night and wrote this song.

    It’s essentially an acknowledgment and rejection of those who claim to be friends, collaborators and supporters, but ultimately act from bad intentions brought on by their own insecurities. I started calling them sharks, then quickly realized that was unfair to innocent sharks. As I wrote into the song — a shark would never tell you what not to do, especially not to do something good for you. This one’s for Karen, and for anyone who’s got haters.

    Don't be discouraged
    We live in a shark tank
    Where everyone feeds on blood
    They try to cut you
    Compulsively
    So they can feed

    I'm being unfair I shouldn't compare
    Them to sharks
    A shark would never tell you what not to do
    Especially not to do something good by you

    But somehow these folks have it in them
    To dominate you while they call you friend
    These days friendship is only a click away
    They hold up their bodies to lurk in the clouds
    Think they look down with great understanding
    But they're only looking down
    On the world
    On themselves
    On the world and on you and I

    They say stay woke
    But they only stay home
    They sleep on the same mattress
    Every night and every day
    They treat us like screens
    They be projecting
    They want to push us sit back and escape

    Masters of manipulation, worshippers of death
    They prey on words, to lay good to rest
    Make any case to halt progress for they want us idle
    But we know the depths of pain, that come with feeling
    We know the stress of being, gracious yet painted as villains
    We know how pretentious, the sharks of this land can be
    But we know not the misery, of wanting so badly for others not to succeed

    I'd hate to imagine
    Don't get discouraged
    We are evolving
    We are on the rise
    This is why
    They try to gut us

    We'll make our own cuts
    We'll keep our hearts open
    We'll feed the world
    We'll keep our minds open
    And our feet in the ground
    Where the sharks can't bite us
    The sharks that ain't sharks

    Bar Rats

    This song is essentially an instrumental, although there is some singing at the end. I started writing it with a concept in mind — a bar band. My understanding of what a bar band is has changed a great deal since living in rural Oregon for nearly a decade, but at the time I was going to a lot of bars and hearing a lot of bands around LA, particularly in the San Gabriel Valley and Inland Empire music scene. I had this image of a band that only plays bars, doing some kind of retro psychedelic surf rock, and I thought it would be funny if at the end of an instrumental jam the whole band sang a gang vocal of the words we are bar rats. So I wrote the piece — different melodies, a guitar solo, all leading to that final chant.

    Ryan contributed bass to this one, and came up with the great idea to record a bass being tuned at the very top of the song — that’s where I added the ad-lib “come on man, start the song” in the intro. My favorite thing about this recording is the way the vocals came together. I took a walk through the studio and started asking anyone around if they would come sing on a track. I ended up with myself, Mikey, and a trio from a band called the Frick Fracks all crowded around a single pair of headphones. It was the Frick Fracks who suggested the additional vocal harmony at the end, which made the whole thing.

    Check out The Frick Fracks – Parallel (Music Video)


    Chasing Cars

    This is a very sad song about a sad day and a sad event. It’s about death — I witnessed the hit-and-run death of a small dog, which in hindsight followed what was essentially the death of a relationship. I didn’t even realize it when I wrote it.

    The events unfolded like this: I went to visit the gal I was seeing at the time and everything just felt off, the way it does sometimes toward the end. We hadn’t spelled anything out, just had a detached and awkward meeting. When I was saying my goodbyes at her front door I heard a commotion down the street. She had told me previously about a neighbor’s dog that would roam the street and come visit with her and her grandma on occasion. Across many visits I had never actually seen the dog — until this day.

    I walked out and looked down the road. I could see the dog lying in the street and an SUV driving off. I walked up the road and as I got closer I could see he was still moving slightly. He was a small dog, some type of terrier mix. I knelt down and said something to him and he let out his last exhale. I looked over to my right and a young woman was walking out of a house looking concerned. I asked if it was her dog. She said no, he’s my uncle’s, and asked if he was dead. I looked at him, then back to her and just shook my head.

    It was just a day or two later that I wrote this song. Within a week she and I would meet again and make clear it was the end. That visit to her house was the last time I went to see her with the idea that there might be something between us. In a sense there were two deaths that day. RIP.

    I heard a screech, I heard a cry
    So I took to the street
    I saw an SUV driving
    I didn't realize
    It was a getaway

    Left behind in the road
    I saw a shape I saw a twitch, I saw a tail wag
    I rushed over but in that time
    He stiffened up, he had leaked out
    I said hello asked are you there
    But there was no response
    He had gone, he had flown

    Little dog
    Chasing cars
    Little dog chasing cars
    Til he got too close

    Saw a woman asked is he yours
    She said no he's my uncle's, sir is he dead
    I touched his head, and sadly shook my own

    Dogs chasing cars
    Dogs chasing cars
    They get so close
    Dogs chasing cars
    They will run they will bark
    Til some day they catch one
    Little dog
    Chasing cars
    He ran and he ran
    Til the day he caught one

    Flower Man

    This song was inspired and informed very much by my friend Enrique — who I will undoubtedly write several future entries about. We are from different countries, him from Spain and me from the US, and we met in Cuba, where we had an instant musical connection and began an adventurous friendship that took us across Cuba, the US, and Spain together. He is still making great music under the name Caro Raro. Check out Caro Raro – Cora De Papel (Music Video)

    The idea that initially inspired this song came from a story he told me about his childhood and his dad. He said that as a child his dad would tell him — and I’m translating from Spanish here — essentially, son, you were born with a flower in the ass. His dad said this because as a kid everybody loved him and life just seemed to work out. He was lucky from birth. There are a couple of close English expressions — your shit don’t stink, sunshine coming out of your ass — though they tend to carry a more negative connotation. This was the positive take. Another expression Enrique taught me was comeflor — literally flower eater — a somewhat derogatory Spanish term for hippies. I love it. I’ve been called a hippie in a derogatory way over the years and it still happens occasionally, and I don’t mind it at all. There are much worse things to be called and much worse things to be. As an old hippie friend once told me, being a hippie is just about being free.

    Instead of writing about Enrique’s anointed childhood I wrote about my own life as a hippie — traveling with minimal worries, trusting in nature, trusting existence to provide what I need, preferring a life in nature over material pursuits and the world of man. The song becomes an account of wild animal encounters I’ve had around the world: walking amongst wild boars in the hills near Barcelona, interacting with monkeys in Costa Rica and Israel, walking up on rattlesnakes several times over the years including in Joshua Tree, feeding raccoons near Montreal — and most notably, after a long day on a beach in Puerto Rico, sitting on a blanket by the shoreline playing guitar when a sea turtle appeared next to me, stopped for a moment, then made its way up the sand to nest and back to sea when it was done. That whole saga deserves its own entry.

    And so if I’m a comeflor, if some people look down on my lifestyle, my lack of grooming or presentation or status — you can call me a hippie, you can say I was born with a flower in the ass, and I will laugh.

    This basically became the anthem of my life as a traveling hippie, and it became a staple in The Planet Of live performances — providing a more chill departure from the otherwise high energy rock sets. The live arrangement was extended for a tasty guitar solo from Kevin Miller. Soon I’ll share a live take alongside the original demo.

    Flower Man (Original Demo)

    Flower Man (Live with The Planet Of)

    NEED TO FIND IT!

    Some say I was born with a flower in the ass
    I laugh 'cause I know just what they are getting at

    I've been broke I've been traveling the world
    I'm still broke still traveling home
    With or without coin, just a flower in the ass
    I will keep my cool to sip the water from gas
    With or without shelter I sleep well
    With or without certainty I trust in nature
    I know she will protect wherever I go
    I know she will provide if I'm immersed in flow

    I don't worry, I don't sweat
    The littlest things

    I can't say I'm a fan of the world of man
    The endless quest for power and hunt for paper
    I dropped out of the race, I won't play it safe
    I'd rather chase the happiness I find in nature

    I'm not worried, I won't sweat
    All the littlest things

    I'm a lucky duck and a naturalist
    All my tunes make reference to the animals
    Sharks rats dogs n cats I love them so
    I could write for 30 days about the beasts that I've known

    Monkeys and raccoons who've eaten from my hand
    Wild boars I've ran with in the night
    The sea turtle that came to me playing on the beach
    Coyotes owls and rattle snakes that startled me

    Bats lizards humming birds and flower man
    Bats lizards humming birds and flower man
    Flower man
    Flower man

    Cynics In Love

    Another song that became a staple with The Planet Of — I’ll include the live arrangement alongside the original demo.

    This song had some lyrical content written over a year before the challenge, but the concept came from something I had felt in a relationship. The dynamic was this: a partner and I had built a kind of cocoon around ourselves where we would connect and indulge in shared criticism and critique of the world. It brought us closer in a way — created a sense of dependence, a safe space for vulnerability that felt closed off from the outside. It wasn’t too bad, honestly. But I recognized it wasn’t ideal for me. I want to grow in love, be more vulnerable, more open — not more sealed off.

    The song takes that dynamic and pushes it to an extreme. It’s written about a couple fully given over to this — two people who indulge so deeply in shared negativity that it becomes the thing that holds them together. I really indulged in the negativity of it. There’s more I could write about this one, but I’ll leave it here for now.

    The image that anchors the whole song came to me during a Vipassana meditation retreat — ten days of silence, no entertainment, just walking a path in the desert between meditations. One day I came upon other retreat participants gathered around something on the ground. Ants eating a bee. The bee was still alive, barely, moving in pain as it was being swarmed. The line came immediately: ants tear a writhing bee apart / that’s them / the ants their minds / and the bee their heart. I hung onto that until the retreat was over and I could write it down.

    Ants tear a writhing bee apart
    That's them
    The ants their minds
    And the bee (is) their heart
    They share the nutrients and pain
    They share the passion
    As they share the blood lust
    Like rabid beasts, two cynics in love
    They hiss and spit at anyone who comes up
    Meanwhile they sit back and watch
    With a sour spot they sit and curse the whole lot
    Misery loves company
    The worst wine is more bitter shared
    The abused become the aggressors
    These victims can't stop with each other
    On and on two pessimists in love
    They gather and laugh at how the worlds fucked
    Though they're knee deep in the shit
    They just happy, they each created half of it
    Two cynics in love, that's them
    They gather and laugh at how the worlds fucked


  • The Challenge: July 2017 Pt. 1 – Background

    In July 2017 I was living full-time at Rad Pro Studios on 123 W. D St. in Ontario, California. I had built out one of the smallest rooms in the building into my recording space – a place to practice, write and record. I slept in a long hallway in the basement, which was an echo chamber made entirely of concrete. I would drop a mattress on the floor when it was time to sleep. At one end of the corridor we had rigged up a makeshift shower – a garden hose with a drain. Rad Pro took reservations 24 hours a day and as a late night owl I was always on call, setting up and cashing out bands at any hour of the night and early morning.

    Outside the studio I was doing occasional solo and band performances and playing with my dear friends in the early days of Xinxin. In my family life there had been an upheaval. I had spent the first half of 2017 facilitating the sale of our family home and the separation of my parents – months of work on the property, selling and trashing things, moving decades of accumulated stuff out piece by piece. Four shanty dwellings my dad and I had built over the years had to be demolished. A lot of history was taken apart. I wrote about this period in the entry for Acaso.

    Through this work I ended up with some cash in my pocket, which I used to buy a laptop, interface, a couple microphones and a few other recording and music making items – all found and haggled for on OfferUp. I had gone about five years without a laptop or any means to record outside of using the Rad Pro facilities when I was in the area. Most of that time I had been on the road traveling with just a nylon guitar and eventually a very heavy resonator I bought used for $200. I had just started recording rough demos in late 2015/early 2016 on borrowed gear, and once I had my own setup I was recording every chance I had.

    By July things had settled down at the family home and my dad and I were hatching a plan to leave California and look for land in Oregon. By the first week of August we would arrive in what would become my new home. But down in California the hard work was done and the keys had been handed over to the new owners. I was waiting for the next move.

    Sometime in June I caught wind through the local music community that there was going to be a songwriting group. The goal was to write a song a day for 30 days. I was intrigued, excited and scared. Like many others I was prolific with starting songs and ideas but not very skilled with finishing them. But I was up for the challenge and the timing was just right – I was able to dedicate the month of July entirely to writing and recording every day.

    The group was hosted on Facebook and had many members – there had to have been over 30 at the start. The guidelines were laid out as such:

    “A song can be anything! The point of this is to make a habit of tuning in to the universal creative force… so do whatever you want! Just do something, and don’t judge yourself! It doesn’t matter at all if it’s good or not. It can be a completed song idea with parts, or it can just be a looped beat idea! Quality is unimportant, and collaboration is encouraged. All genres are welcome! Hip-hop, metal, ska, trippy soundscapes, funk, folk… EXPERIMENT!”

    “We’re working with this premise: Listen to the universe, come up with an idea, and get it out of you! Stop being a perfectionist! This challenge forces you to stop judging what you make. If you show up every day and write 30 songs, there’s a good chance some of them will be really great.”

    A handful of participants were peers from the Inland Empire and San Gabriel Valley music scene – people I’d played shows with, seen around the studio, had the occasional jam with. Many others I never met in person but got to know online through the challenge. The structure was simple: the first person to complete their song each day would share their link in a new post, and everyone else would reply with their own submission. If you fell behind you were invited to jump back in at any time – you’d just pick up from wherever you left off and try to catch up. By the end it came down to a hard core group of diehards, as all challenges do.

    One of those diehards was the late Chris Swanson. Chris was part of the Inland Empire scene and his songs always pushed and inspired me. He participated in 2017, 2018 and 2019 song-a-day groups. His song Woman on his final release with the band Bodegas began as a demo submitted during the 2019 challenge. He passed away in 2023. I think about him often.

    The challenge consumed my life. It was the last thing I thought about before I went to sleep and the first thing I thought about in the morning. I began to seek inspiration in everything – every conversation, every sight, every dream, every walk. I would stay up until the sun came up almost every night recording. Some nights after recording until sunrise I’d feel so inspired for the next song that I’d push through another hour or two making progress on the following day’s tune. I could barely sleep because I was so excited to continue.

    One morning I fell asleep around 7 AM after recording and woke up to the lights coming on – one of the other residents was starting his day and needed the shower. I pulled the blanket over my head and told him to go for it. I couldn’t imagine getting up at that point. A few hours later when I woke up, I got right back to the challenge.

    The philosophy that unlocked during that month was simple: good enough. Previously if I didn’t have the perfect line or the perfect riff I would hit a wall, put a song down, maybe never pick it up again. The challenge changed that. There was a huge sense of urgency. I started to realize I couldn’t always finish a song in one day – I could, but I was getting so into the arrangements and the recording process that I wanted more time with a piece. So I decided that every day I would start something and finish something. I wouldn’t always finish what I started that same day, but every song I finished that month began during the challenge. I would record a guitar part to the point it was good enough and move on. The lyrics would get to the point of good enough and I’d move on. Keep moving. Keep writing. Onto the next section, onto the next instrument, and when I got to the end – good enough. Submit it and start mining for the next song. It was the only way to stay on top of the wave.

    I was mind blown by people like Chris who were able to balance their busy schedules and still put songs out day after day. I had almost nothing but time and I was barely holding my life together outside the challenge. Others were banging them and making it look easy. This type of communal effort really boosts the accountability and inspiration.

    In the end I wrote 26 songs that month. Some never went anywhere and I’m happy they exist as what they are. Others found new life – Forty Thousand Spirits, Flower Man, Don’t Talk To Me About Pizza, Tinder Babies, Cynics In Love and Following became live staples with The Planet Of, with Tinder Babies being a fan favorite. This was the challenge that brought the most significant breakthroughs in my writing and process. It ushered in the last decade of writing, which has been the most prolific time of my life- so far.


    July 2017 Part 2 & 3 will contain the stories behind these songs

    • Ten To One
    • Following
    • Will Hide
    • Bad Kitty
    • Young Love
    • Insomniac Stupor Rag
    • Sister
    • The Witch & The Wizard
    • Sharks Not Sharks
      • Bar Rats
      • Chasing Cars
      • Flower Man
      • Cynics In Love
      • No Body
      • Tinder Babies
      • The Challenge
      • Elemental
      • Where The People At?
      • Clip Show
      • Don’t Talk To Me About Pizza
      • Face Stealer
      • Forty Thousand Spirits
      • Hicks
      • Unplugged
      • Expressing Frustration At Soundcloud
      • Destination Fever
    1. Dust / Been Missin’

      In October 2023 we began the first round of Tim Bulster’s song-a-week songwriting group. This came at a perfect time – I had resolved to dedicate the fall and winter to writing and recording, stepping away from other obligations to hold space for that. I was also on the mend from a rough break-up that happened a few months before and coming out of a depressive spell that followed (and preceded).

      Writing became the main engine for processing everything I was feeling. There was one evening where I was trying to play guitar and felt so disconnected from the instrument – there was a huge emotional block and I couldn’t stand it. I started playing with the intention of letting out anything and everything I was feeling. I spent the next couple of hours improvising a handful of songs and this unlocked something in my process. From that point forward I began to put more intention into externalizing what I was feeling, which meant connecting with my body and tapping into whatever emotions I was feeling at the time.

      Dust started on October 9th, 2023 – the very first day of the writing group. I began the song that morning after reading Tim’s first email. I began singing “I’m sorry” and then it started to pour out from there.

      I was reflecting on the past, reflecting on the period of my life spent traveling, on the people that I met and places that I went, the places that I hadn’t returned to and the people that I have lost touch with over the years. These reflections… hurt.

      I have a basket filled to the top with journals, trinkets, things I found along the way and wrote and scribbled – sketches, doodles, notes, lyrics, contact information on places I traveled, phrases and translations in a number of languages, and other things which I’m scared to look at. At the time of writing this song, the basket was under my bed, and I thought it was a good reference point for how I felt about this period of my life and about this past.

      I was envisioning the dust-sealed old box of notes, physical material artifacts from this period, and I feel cowardly, too cowardly to return to them. It just hits something deep – longing, regret – the emotions that come with a past lost, a connection lost, a friend lost, with the words that haven’t been sent or said yet, the things I’ll never get the chance to say because it’s too late. These artifacts carry all of it – and they’re from some of the simplest, most wild, most ambitious, most dangerous and reckless and careless and carefree and wonderful and rewarding times of my life. I loved those days.

      “Dust” starts here:

      Under my bed
      Tucked away are pictures and notes
      Written by a ghost and left for someday
      Someday I have the strength to reconnect

      The ghost is a past version of me. There was simply too much happening all the time, every day – too many adventures to remember it all, too many periods of motion without stopping to reflect or write regularly. Even if I went through every note and drawing, there may be more lost than recovered. I still haven’t found the strength to dive into the box.

      More than 10 years have passed
      Haven’t taken one glance
      Just let the dust take it over
      The words on the pages
      Places and faces
      Phases and names
      Feel so far away in the dust

      Going into the chorus:

      I know someday I’ll go back to the places
      As they remain, everything else seems to change
      Some friends have passed and gone
      I know now how I was wrong
      Not to connect while I had the chance

      I have returned to many sites of my early travels. I love to return to places just to soak them in – to see what I see, think what I think, feel what I feel, remember what I remember. There are places I’ve yet to return to which I still intend to. And even more so I hope to reach out and find some of the people I’ve lost touch with out in the world. Those I still can. Others are gone now – people I can only connect with through memories, photos, dreams, or if I’m lucky, their art and music. I regret not reaching out to them more while I still had the chance.

      When I’m really struggling, I tend to withdraw, hide away. I won’t reach out. I remember in some of the worst of times grabbing my phone and looking at the contact list, stopping on names for a moment, but not being able to bring myself to just ring them up.

      It’s so simple. It’s such a simple action – just pressing a button on the screen. But what if they answer? I will have to acknowledge the difficulty that I’m facing. I will have to acknowledge that I’m not doing well, that I need help. But if they’re not doing well? And what if they’re not available? What if they don’t answer and never call back? More pain on top of what I was already feeling.

      I don’t know that these thoughts would even go through my head in that moment. It’s more of a general feeling of paralysis. There’s this part of me that wants to reach out, but I just cannot bring myself to do it. And instead, I isolate. It ain’t good, but that’s where I was at and that’s where I was writing from in verse two:

      Heavy in bed, I lay awake
      Thinking of you and all my mistakes
      All the dreams I didn’t share
      The words I didn’t say
      The songs I didn’t sing
      I wrote them for you and I locked them away
      To pick up the phone, look at your name
      I wanna press my thumb
      But I’m paralyzed by my aching heart
      My heart aching, but I know that someday we must reconnect
      No matter how much it hurts, I know it
      Someday we must reconnect
      I can’t lose you like the rest
      I want so bad just to tell you I’m sorry

      The song moves from the dusty past which I’ve hidden under my bed to the present where I’m lying in bed struggling, wanting to connect, feeling unable, and recognizing that I just need to do it – I have to, before it’s too late. By the end of the song, I still haven’t accomplished the task. I leave this song as a declaration of love, of hurt, of regret, of accountability, of genuine apology. If not a request for forgiveness, at least an expression, an explanation, and hope for understanding.

      The last chorus:

      I’m sorry I didn’t call
      I had no good reason at all
      I love you with all my heart
      I’m just hurt by the distance that’s grown between us
      That’s left us in the dust
      That’s left us in the dust

      Interestingly, one of the friends I had in mind when writing this actually reached out to me for the first time in a couple years that morning while I was finishing up the recording.


      Been Missing

      “Been Missing” is the sister song to “Dust.” Where “Dust” is the somber snapshot – reflecting on the past with regret and heaviness – this is a song of triumph. When I’ve managed to overcome that disconnect, let go of the regret, and make the connection.

      I was truly inspired after writing “Dust” to actually reach out to some friends from the past. I started writing “Been Missing” after a very long and deep conversation with an old friend I hadn’t talked to in years and seen in even longer. It was a sunny day and I was just getting to the beach when I took her call. We walked and talked for close to two hours – catching up, going through all the motions of reminiscing about the past, joking and laughing and getting very serious, sharing the difficulties we’d gone through and the good things in our lives. The dogs were running around on the sand. The sun was shining. After the conversation ended I took that feeling of goodness and put it into this song.

      I tried to write in the motions of that kind of catch up conversation. The questions that come with it: How have you been? Where you at these days? What have you been up to? How did that one thing work out? Have you seen so and so?

      I want to know that the people I care about are doing well. But it’s not always that way, and if it’s not, I want to hear about that too. I want to know what their struggles are, what their dreams and hopes are, what stands in the way of those things. I want to know if I can help.

      And eventually it’s my turn. Where have I been? What have I been up to? Where do I begin… There is always lots to catch up on. Many of my old friends don’t even know where I live. People will ask me how Portland is and I’ll say I don’t know, I haven’t been there in some time. It’s five hours away from me. Sometimes I’m catching up with people and I realize my life is crazy – weaving between periods of intense travel or isolation, of staying home, relationships in and out, being intensely focused on family, or music, or work, or just being far, far away for extended periods of time. So much happens in this life and I’ll often lose track along the way.

      The part I love most about reconnecting with old friends – the discovery that though much has changed, much is the same. One friend says “No time passes in the hearts of good folk” and I am so grateful for this. When I can reconnect with someone and it feels like we’ve just picked up from where we left off. Sure there are things to catch up on, but the understanding, openness and love has been there all along – across great distances in space and time. We can still be ourselves, silly and ridiculous, deep and thoughtful. And receive each other as friends. I cherish these connections.


      Been Missin (Original Demo)

      Been Missin’ (Live from home)

      Where you at 
      These days
      I’ve missed you
      Since I been away
      Tell me now
      What’s changed
      And what’s remained the same
      Let’s take our time
      Catching up
      Before we get to reminiscing

      Have the years been kind to you
      Have you done the things that you wanted to
      And when you did how good was it
      Take me there I want to know what
      I been missing

      Where have I been
      Where do I start
      Some years happened to someone else
      And I lost touch along the way
      Between everywhere and nowhere

      Do you
      Remember the last time
      Last time it was just you and I
      I do

      In the grand scheme of things
      It was less than a blink
      But in these brief human lives
      It was a long long time

      Now talk to me I want to know what
      You want today everything that
      Stands in the way of your dream
      I love you and you know I believe

      Though much has changed
      Much is the same
      Our bits are as dumb as ever
      One second we’re on the ocean floor
      The next we’re in an uproar
      Our laughter scores the night
      And sleepless voices jam til sunrise
      You don’t stay up like this
      But you’re not surprised
      We did the same thing last time

      Last time it was just you and I
      And when we did
      How good was it
      We’re here today I’ll never forget
      What I been missing
      What I been missing

      P.S.

      I still struggle. I still withhold and isolate. It all goes in phases. I still haven’t opened up those notebooks, revisited those trinkets, revisited that past. And I still haven’t reached out to some of those whom I dream about and write about and think about. Some of them are gone. Some of them I’ve lost touch with, lost contact – I don’t know how to find them. And others, I just have no good reason at all. But sometimes I pick up the phone. Send a message or make a call. And when I do, it’s good. No time passes in the hearts of good folk.